Jan '05 - Jan '07
Christmas time! Ha!
It's said to be the time of year that brings out the best in people. Well, this is something to doubt, if I might say...
On the one hand people turn into fierce full materialists. Without a notice it just gets in your head, louder and more determined then ever 'gifts, gifts, gifts... buy now!'. The problems appear instantly: 'I buy him/her that expensive gift, but what if he/she buys me a symbolic cheap one? ' / 'don't I better save this money and buy myself something nice and try something symbolic, straight from the heart for them? - though, maybe they go also for symbolic, so there's no gift for me!' / etc.
why else dou you believe there is not 1, not 2, not 3 but 4 threads on the discussions regarding gifts, one month before christmas?!
these are btw ALL wishes archinecters have expressed til today 30 dec 2005, 23:20 local time
It is also a good opportunity to get more things you don't really need (I'm at the second 'arch now volume 1' and expect the third 'vol. 1' this year / my brother used to buy me several Christmases in a row a perfume I hated - he always remembered I had a reaction, just couldn't tell which). Of course, only the gesture matters, but these gestures could have mattered a lot more, if you ask me.
Yes. Christmas is all about loved, beloved etc; there is no 'I' but only 'You'; gifts are supposed to be symbolic, they just look good under the tree, but tell that to your kid. There is no 'I' but only 'You'.
If you deny it now, at least when you were a kid, you have to admit you loved surprises and gifts and this was the perfect season for them. But back then Santa (I accidentally typed 'Sanat' instead of Santa and the 'Word' offered 2 alternatives 'Santa or Satan' - creepy!) just was way better at his job... How often do you get things you never thought of (or didn't knew they even exist)? Sorry, but Christmas sells everything!!! The only pure beings in the business are the kids: their joy for the presents (which Santa always knows J) makes it all perfect. Their only question is 'why did they put Jesus' birthday on Christmas? does he get twice as much presents?'.
But besides the materialist matter there is also the spiritual one: Christmas turns us into crybabies!
You are emotionally sabotaged at every step. From the new ballads you are obliged to listen (no new normal song in this season - everyone has a sloooooooooooow song!), to the moralist movies in cinema, to the distorted image of Santa in every posture possible on the streets (I always felt pity for Santa and what people did to his image). The TV and radio are corrupted and full of voices that try to get to your 'soft spot'. In the end you just have to turn into yourself... and then another tragedy: tears, apologies, redemption, guilt, and so on and so on.
People get so 'soft' in this holiday that you risk making them cry by saying 'hello' in the wrong tonality. If someone comes and apologizes for something you can't remember ever happening: it's the season. And the 'good-intention-I'm such a nice person-Santa, can you see me?' - smile, people throw at you everywhere, makes you wonder if there is an escape.
Wrong time for sanity.
Since we are at it, I wanted to apologize for my behavior this whole year (whatever I did, I apologize!). Hope I didn't offend / sadden / upset etc. anybody. In case I did, I am sorry. I promise next year I will do my best (not like this year) to become a better person. I can already feel I am a better person. I promise to help my mom with the dishes. Ok, I'll also walk the dog (though my brother should take care of that, since I'm taking care of the dishes, but maybe he's not that much of a good person. Ok, I'll do it!).
Santa, you accidentally there? If yes: in case you are confused or need advice for the archinecters presents, here's a little help (you will find my request under 'Oana S.', 18th thread down, 8th up - mail me in case you forgot my address -which would, btw, explain a lot!).
If no: who am I talking to?
I told you it's not sane...