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Wood Guy

Times are difficult. Mental health is stigmatized. Our brains are complex meat puzzles; we should feel as open talking about when they aren't working right as when we have a sore shoulder or broken toe. What are you dealing with? How are you dealing with it? Share here, or lend support. 

 
Jan 28, 21 3:49 pm

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Wood Guy

I'll start--I have ADD, diagnosed as an adult--school would have been much easier if I knew this when I was younger. I did well, but could have done a lot better, with less stress. I'm a week into taking an ADD drug similar to Ritalin and wow, what a difference. Being able to focus on the task at hand is something people take for granted. Even after 20 years of diagnosis and doing my best to learn non-drug coping mechanisms, I now feel about twice as productive as I do without the drug. 

Jan 28, 21 3:59 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

Can you describe how your ADD manifests? I don't like researching medical stuff on the internet, so it might help me understand what it is.

Jan 28, 21 4:01 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

I recently responded to a friend who asked that question: "I don't mean this to sound complainy, but by way of describing--ADD is like one of your kids is constantly vying for your attention quietly in the background, a dog is barking, and another kid is screaming for attention every ten minutes." It was tailored to his situation but I think it's accurate.

I'm actually not 100% convinced that what I have is really a disorder; my Myers-Briggs personality type is INTP which has a lot in common with ADD/ADHD and also the type of autism formerly called Asperger's Syndrome. Many people over the years have suggested I might have Aspergers' but I only have some of the characteristics.

Anyway... going off on tangents is an ADD trait. Mostly just having a hard time focusing on something without getting distracted, or feeling the need for distraction. There is always a song or two playing in my head, a conversation or two, about ten things I want to research... I currently have 60 tabs open in my browser and they are all open for a reason. Too many projects, too many interests.

Constant movement helps maintain focus--I'm not exactly hyper, but I almost always am tapping a rhythm with my hands, feet or toes. Sometimes just rubbing fingers together. I think most people find time in the shower to be good for thinking, but with ADD, things like showering, driving or even just walking help us focus.

On the negative side, we crave serotonin so substance abuse is common, and we don't fit well in modern office life so depression and anxiety are common as well. But because our brains are usually on overdrive, we can connect disparate ideas together and tend to be creative in an unusual way.

Auditory learning is almost impossible--anything you say to me I will understand but will not remember, including your name. Written words are slightly better but not much. I can read an entire book and enjoy it but immediately afterwards I could not tell you the main character's name or most of the plot.

I am convinced that at least 90% of people in the construction field--residential, anyway--have ADD/ADHD or personalities that trend that way, because once I started treating builders like they had ADD things got much easier for me! For a long time I had a sign over my desk that I made, "if it matters, draw it." Spoken instructions on a job site are nearly useless, I've learned hundreds of times over. I'll stop there but hopefully that gives you an idea.

Jan 28, 21 4:35 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

I'm smelling a lot of crossover with my personality, but I don't know if that's because we see patterns when we want to or not.

Jan 28, 21 4:45 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

Hard to say. It's definitely easy to convince yourself you have cancer when reading WebMD. I was diagnosed by both a MCLSW therapist and my primary care doc, and didn't (and don't) want to think I really have ADD, so it's not like I was looking for a diagnosis. Are there specific clues that you might have it? Not that you want an Archinect diagnosis.

Jan 28, 21 4:53 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

I'm always putting work aside to do little things during the day, I rarely focus on anything for more than an hour.

Jan 28, 21 5:30 pm  · 
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atelier nobody

Sneaky,

I found this video in particular helpful (maybe just because the attractive young woman could hold my attention).

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cx13a2-unjE

Jan 28, 21 5:36 pm  · 
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tduds

I've been pretty sure for a while that I have some form of ADHD (see Politics Central for examples), but I've been resistant to official diagnosis or any prescriptions. I take a few supplements that help with executive dysfunction, and a one-two punch of Melatonon + THC to sleep through the night. Part of the resistance is that I feel like I get almost as much benefit from my bouts of hyperfocus as I do from my bouts of distraction (I joke that I can work twice as fast as most people, but only half the time ), and I also feel like a lot of my creativity and sense of personality comes out of my inherent restlessness. Even if it gave me a slight bump, productivity-wise, I have to imagine tempering the lows also tempers the highs, and I really don't want to take that away from myself.

Jan 28, 21 5:44 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

So... maybe? Brains are hard.

Jan 28, 21 5:44 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

I took meds decades ago, I didn't like how it cut off the highs as well as the lows. It's part of what has kept me from seeking them out as a tool since. Might be time, though, since I don't see therapy doing anything except giving me more information to fuel my depression brain.

Jan 28, 21 6:16 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

Tduds, I could have written your comment. I recently started Melatonin after years of getting maybe one full nights' sleep a week, and we make our own cannabis coconut oil that I often take before bed. I was worried about what methylphenidate ("meth light") would do but I really don't notice any reduction in creativity, though I'm mostly in production mode right now. What else do you do to help with executive function? Does vitamin D help? I've been meaning to start taking it. I don't drink fortified milk and don't get as much outside time as I'd like.

Jan 28, 21 7:47 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

I drink several cups of coffee a day and I'd say the buzz from the meds is about like having two cups of coffee, but it lasts for 12 hours.

Jan 28, 21 7:48 pm  · 
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tduds

I take Vitamin D and a GABA supplement in the morning. Melatonin + THC tincture (hooray legal cannabis!) in the evening.

 The gummies are supposed to be for stress but I find they help a lot with executive dysfunction. I've been weaning myself off the caffeine, down to 2 cups a day (sometimes a third on Saturday if I'm feeling frisky), and I drink a glass of water between coffees. 

Tangential: after the holidays I made a rule of drinking a glass of water in between anything that isn't water (coffee, beer, soda, liquor, etc.) and I have to say it's worked miracles. I sleep better, feel better, don't get hangovers. A+ highly recommend.

Jan 28, 21 9:26 pm  · 
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curtkram

i don't think i have add, but a lot of what you say resonates. i don't do any thc. it's bad for me, which might suggest your chemical imbalance is different than mine. i do melatonin with whiskey to help me sleep. i also have a vitamin d supplement with morning coffee, but i got that to support my immune system because of the world now.

Jan 28, 21 9:57 pm  · 
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bowling_ball

tduds, my bedtime routine is the same as yours, and I also take 5-htp with the GABA. Works well enough, I just have to remember to actually take it.

Jan 29, 21 9:59 am  · 
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atelier nobody

I'm also an adult-diagnosed ADHD. On top of that, I have a history with alcohol and substance abuse (thankfully far in the past now), so I was  very nervous about taking any stimulant medication for my ADHD. I've now been on Adderall for a couple months, and it has made a difference, but not as much as I would have liked.

I definitely suffered many consequences of a lifetime of "not living up to my potential" (including the aforementioned alcohol and drugs), but I've managed to arrive at a reasonably comfortable place in life.

Jan 28, 21 5:30 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

Have you considered trying a different type of ADHD med?

Jan 28, 21 7:50 pm  · 
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atelier nobody

When I was first diagnosed, I was already on Wellbutrin for depression and anxiety, and also tried some other non-stimulant meds before I "gave in" to trying the Adderall. So far, I've had no temptation to take "extra" Adderall, so I'm OK with it so far.

Jan 28, 21 8:20 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

Adapted from another place, figured I'd put it here.

I haven't been formally diagnosed with anything, but I've been told I likely have dysthymia, which is long-term, low-grade depression. 

It might explain why I'm the person in the meeting pointing out the problems and issues as opposed to getting excited about the project. Why I don't want to put in the effort even though I know I should want to, since this is a field where, from time to time, I get really excited about the projects and when it happens it's like someone opened a window and I realize there's a sky and sun out there. Why I can explain, in very persuasive language, why young people definitely should become architects but then feel nothing but antipathy about the profession as it concerns me. Why I am endlessly proud of the projects that I have helped bring to completion but never tell anyone about them because I don't want to seem to be bragging. None of my friends, save one or two, even know what I have done.

I complain when I get pigeonholed, but don't take the initiative to show what I can do. It's partly because I don't want to spend my own time on work unpaid, but it's also the lack of joy in my work.

I look around and see that I'm -at minimum- as smart as my peers. What they know and I don't is generally stuff I can learn. In my free time I just sit. Play games. Watch movies. Clean up enough to not be totally buried in stuff.

Then I get depressed because my apartment isn't tidy, my sketching hand isn't good, my projects aren't finished.

My partner says I'm good at everything I try. That might be right, but I never put in the effort to be really good at anything. The only reason I'm good at architecture is because I'm basically forced to practice.

I don't want to be like that any more.

Jan 28, 21 6:08 pm  · 
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James Bragg

@SneakyPete are you US-based by any chance? In the US there is a pathology definition for every little personality trait and - obviously - there is a cure for it. The reality is that personality traits such as the ones you describe can be leveraged. If you are the person that always points out why things may not work out in projects, there's nothing wrong with that: a project needs that kinds of insight, because - especially larger projects - tend always to overrun. There are always the optimistic guys who always get excited (I'm sure there's a pathological definition for them too), you are simply tilting the scale in the opposite direction.

Mar 17, 21 2:16 pm  · 
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No embarrassment at all. Mental health is health, and I wouldn't be embarrassed to talk about broken leg or something.

I've been on Prozac for several years now. I started taking it roughly when menopause started, and I really felt mentally unhealthy. Like I went to 100% anxiety over any little problem: I was ten minutes late to a meeting? Well then I'm gonna lose my job and then lose my house and then live on the streets and then my teen son will never be able to go to college and he'll never forgive me and it's all because my entire life I've been a failure who can't follow through on anything and...this was a very typical inner monologue for me when I was stuck in traffic.  Prozac together with weekly therapy sessions has helped me stop getting overwrought over small things.

I still struggle all the time with imposter syndrome, and I have to work hard to control my temper when I get angry at myself (Prozac helps with that, too - I have a pretty bad history of throwing things against the wall when I'm angry) for failing or doing something dumb. But my therapist constantly reminds me to grant myself the same grace I grant others: when someone else screws up, I tend to be extremely forgiving and understanding (unless they're a *real* malicious asshole). So I'm getting better at being kind to myself when I eat too many cookies or let a deadline slip or feel too lazy to vacuum. Coincidentally, this morning I read this tweet and it's absolutely wonderful:

The part that especially got me was that phrase "when living was a struggle instead of a blessing". It should always be, at least predominantly, a blessing. It's worth it to change things to make it so.

Jan 28, 21 9:30 pm  · 
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Replying to myself to add: menopause is a fucking trip. If any upper middle aged women out there want to discuss how brutal menopause is feel free to message me privately!

Jan 28, 21 9:34 pm  · 
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I saw that tweet too Donna and thought it was fantastic. "... freedom to make accomplishments again," was the part that hit home for me. Sometimes we just need to allow ourselves to take a W.

Jan 28, 21 9:43 pm  · 
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tduds

I love that so much! Life gets a lot more livable once you realize most of it is made up, and you have the ability to make up what works best for you. 

I still struggle with all sorts of things, but that simple mindset has got me & my wife through so much - most importantly in our relationship. We invent our own roles & expectations for each other (to hell with gender roles!), and that simple trick has thwarted nearly every fight. It feels unfair how little we fight.

Jan 28, 21 10:52 pm  · 
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midlander

i want to second on the imposter syndrome issue. it's been such a big drag on my own enjoyment of work for many years. i feel like it's something arch school culture really drives into people, the sense of never being good enough. i think it's more perniciously damaging then the visibly unhealthy culture of overwork, just because it's hidden often even to those suffering it.

Jan 29, 21 10:59 am  · 
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Wood Guy

I'm surprised to hear that imposter syndrome is common. I figured it was my cross, as a non-architect in an architects' world. Goes to show that many of our struggles are widely shared, just not discussed enough.

Jan 29, 21 1:44 pm  · 
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bowling_ball

I think if you actually asked people individually, you'd find nearly everybody has imposter syndrome. Myself included. Doesn't surprise me at all.

Jan 29, 21 1:47 pm  · 
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curtkram

not my experience BB. i seem to be around a lot of people with dunning-kruger

Jan 29, 21 7:02 pm  · 
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Non Sequitur

Fantastic idea for a discussion thread and whenever something like this comes up (outside of the forum, but sometimes within), I am reminded of this forum discussion from 2014: Tears of a Clown.

Now the news from that day still affect me, as I'm sure it does to most, but I am able to watch his movies and listen to his comedy.  Ditto for Chris Cornell even though I am genuinely still shocked.  I have however not watched/read a single second of Anthony Bourdain since his death... and I fucking loved everything he did. I just can't bring myself to it.  Not entirely sure what to make of that.

Moving on, I'm more interested in reading than delving into my own past & present as I can't relate to therapy sessions, or medication for example, but I do know that I am a stubborn mule with a stiff "if I can't figure this shit out by myself, then nothing else will help" moto.  Likely a ridiculous statement (see previous stubborn ass comment) and for some reason, I am fine with both but I've had that line of thought from very early on. I will say that one of my proudest achievement is to have survived past the age of 18 but it took until I was about 32 to finally break free from that anchor.  It took some significant but positive life events to change my pov.

I would say the source of all my current mental health struggles are entirely all linked to my 4y son.  As I've written before, he has significant learning delays (severe language & cognitive delays, not permanent issues (ie. autism), yet) and it's one thing to feel sadden when his peers leap-frog over him but it's just utterly frustrating to not be able to help him especially when we see how hard he works.  Last assessment from late 2020 put him in as equal to an 18-24month old and we have another assessment coming up in less than 2 weeks that will likely add more stress as he gets more diagnosis.  I do take comfort knowing that he has parents who have the time, energy, motivation, and financial capacity to do everything it takes, but still, I feel like I'm not doing shit.

I've mentioned before that my wife is in the early childhood education field and has worked in numerous no/low-income areas, kids in the "system", kids born from 14-year old girls (raped as they fled warzones),  refugees, etc... and knowing what they go through, compared to the effort we do for ours does affect me. But on lighter & happier note, my wife was notified that an older student (7-8y old) of hers unfortunately is living in a shelter with only the clothing on his and she immediately sprung into action collecting clothing and things from everyone she knew with boys of that age.  This was less than 4hrs ago and we're under strict stay-at-home orders. 

Hey look at that, I popped in to add the clown link but wrote for an hour.  

cheers.  

edit: I'm not editing this, beyond this one sentence (and a glaring spelling mistake in the first sentence).  Leaving it raw and as it came out in the first place.

Jan 28, 21 10:51 pm  · 
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Non, I too have so often been a stubborn mule who has to fix things myself - I'm terrible at asking for help, as I feel it's weak for me to not just do it on my own. But, I never think of anyone else as weak when *they* ask for help, I'm happy to and think they're logical to assess their situation and make it work better by enlisting help! It's that thing about extending grace to yourself, which I still often suck at. I think I've told the story here that I once drove four or five carloads of garbage in my little hatchback Festiva from the architecture studio to the dumpster rather than ask one of the many guys I knew with trucks to help me do it in one load. And also: your son is so loved, and that's the most important thing. I am certain you are doing a fantastic job with him.

Jan 29, 21 10:26 am  · 
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Wood Guy

Both Robin Williams' and Anthony Bourdains' suicides really got to me as well. I can't watch either of them, just get too sad. I watched Mork and Mindy as a kid and loved him ever since. I was also a fan of Chris Cornell, or his music anyway, but his suicide did not affect me the same way.

I hear you on the stubborn mule thing. It drives my wife crazy that I will not ask for help with most things. I do try to share things because as a healthy, educated, white American male I feel a responsibility to reduce the stigma attached to things like mental health or business failures, but it doesn't come naturally.

I'm sorry about your struggles with your son, Non. If it helps at all, I didn't speak until over 2yo, but apparently my first words were, "George Washington." Unfortunately some people just don't get brains wired the same as most people. I'm sure you are a supportive father and husband; there's only so much you can do.

Jan 29, 21 1:40 pm  · 
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Non Sequitur

Thanks for the well whishes.

Jan 29, 21 3:52 pm  · 
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citizen

You're a man of your word, Wood Guy.  And so many posts and responses in a few hours?  I think you're onto something here.  Am going to bed and will read everyone's contributions tomorrow.   I'll sleep better knowing that I and my struggles have some good company.

Jan 29, 21 3:23 am  · 
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midlander

i keep starting and stopping, it's actually very hard to express a serious thing in this format.

afaik i am actually in good mental health. but my immediate family and about half my extended family are just disasters, all due to addictions.

i lost a parent directly due to alcoholism and have an older sister and younger brother who struggle with it. the older sister eventually pulled herself together and lives an ok life.

my brother has been in and out of rehab multiple times, lived homeless on the streets of a major city for a couple years, been jailed, attacked a man with a knife, wrecked all his cars, and yet somehow survives. my dad cut down his drinking when i was a child after he crashed his porsche into his other car parked in our garage and now lives alone in a hospital for dementia patients. he remembers me but not always my siblings.

my other sister dropped out of college after intentionally overdosing on medication. but she recognized her problems and cleaned up and lives a very quiet life in a small town in the mountains, doing odd jobs and raising animals.

what's hard to explain... is any of that. i don't think i'll ever understand it, and i'll always have a fear of the irrational behavior at the core of people.

i myself seem to have a poor tolerance for alcohol and managed to avoid any serious problems when i was younger just because i'd be the one sitting outside sick before anyone else was even drunk.

that and maybe an instinct to protect myself led me to focus on my career and probably take myself much too seriously for many years. the result though has been a life in my own world which is very happy and generally satisfying. i am grateful i escaped whatever curse afflicted the rest of my family but worry every day what if it skips a generation and shows up in my own children.

Jan 29, 21 10:50 am  · 
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SneakyPete

I don't believe any of that generational skipping tosh, myself. You provide a good example for your children and it'll teach them the proper mechanisms for dealing with temptation. Or it won't. Neither of those puts the fault on you OR genetics, really. I'm sorry to hear the story of your family, reminds me of my mother's side. I'm glad your experience has been positive even with all of that weight.

Jan 29, 21 11:40 am  · 
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I, probably like others, don't have much to share concerning my mental health. I've struggled at times in my life, but overall don't seem to have this as part of the life challenges I get to deal with. I have family that does, but being the family that we are, we don't usually talk about anything deeper than what the weather will be like next week. That might be slowly changing though.

I am, however, beginning to experience the benefits of group sharing and counseling for other reasons related to physical health, but tie into mental health, and I think there is power in that. I'm a reluctant participant in those discussions (see my comment about my family to get a clue as to why), but my wife has embraced it better and I've seen the benefits. 

Anyway, all that to say that while I may not have much to share or much to relate to directly ... I'll be reading and supporting. 

Jan 29, 21 12:02 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

Here's a good one. On a positive day, I decide to take initiative and design the façade since we're in a time crunch. Fast forward a day and I now have some sketches from the REAL designer showing me just how much my effort was worth. Take initiative, not good enough. Don't? Also not good enough. Stay in your box, worker bee.

Jan 29, 21 1:24 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

That's why I can't be an employee anymore. Not that self-employment is easy, but when I get undercut, at least it's my own doing. Sorry that happened ;-(

Jan 29, 21 1:46 pm  · 
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bowling_ball

I'm typically a PM but I have a big exciting project starting up soon and I was doing some sketching a few weeks ago. The next morning, one of our designers picks it up and says directly to me "there's no FUCKING way you're designing that" and I agreed. Ha!

Jan 29, 21 5:25 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

What a dick. This profession fucking sucks. We bitch, piss, moan, complain, and whine about not having talented people, then we take people and treat them like roughly human shaped tools, to be used up and discarded. Architecture as royal court, where the scullery workers should be happy to be working.

Jan 29, 21 5:32 pm  · 
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tduds

I'd start polishing my resume...

Jan 29, 21 6:11 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

I'm gonna see my doc about some meds first, then give them time to help. I don't want to start a new job in the same mindset I am currently buried under.

Jan 29, 21 6:16 pm  · 
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tduds

Closest I ever came to a moment like this was a couple years back. I was noodling on a design that we hadn't quite been given the green light on, just kicking up some pre-SD concepts to present to a client at a moment's notice if the moment arose. Found out via some curious files in the same folder that a different principal had later given a coworker the exact same project without telling me, and that version had already been pushed to the client. It may have been unintentional but it came off as a complete dismissal, like the opportunity had just been stolen from me. 

I was livid for a moment, but after a walk and a beer I just shifted all my attention to other work. Chump don't want any help, chump don't get no help.

Jan 29, 21 6:34 pm  · 
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thisisnotmyname

I've found it's always a roll of the dice as to how much any firm is going to allow you to be creative. A lot of firms claim they are a place where "good ideas can come from anyone", but that's rarely really true in my experience.

Jan 29, 21 6:37 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

I don't need to be the fat pen person. I can thrive on details, renderings, modeling, whatever. Design is many parts of many things. What cheeses me off is when I put effort in and it's akin to shouting in space. Might as well not even waste the breath.

Jan 29, 21 6:43 pm  · 
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citizen

Thanks everyone for posting thus far.  It's helpful to know I'm not the only one who struggles with focus, motivation, and self-esteem.  That sounds like a platitude, but it's not: learning how this sh!t shows up in others' daily experiences actually helps me.

Donna's mention of imposter syndrome sent me to Google.  So it's actually a thing!  Sometimes I feel like Dexter or some other tv character that goes for years just waiting, day in and day out, to be discovered-- as inadequate, not homicidal.  What's ironic is that, to read through folks' other, work-related posts, how very competent, talented, and diligent most people sound without even trying to.

++++ "Stop giving yourself rules."

Jan 29, 21 3:40 pm  · 
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Non Sequitur

but... "Stop giving yourself rules." is a rule. Should we instead say that we should only give ourselves one rule to rule all rules? But then we'd need 2 rules. That one and the no giving rules one, and then it's still just layers of turtles. There is a LotR pun to make here, but I can't quite put my finger on it.

Jan 29, 21 3:51 pm  · 
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citizen

Consider the spirit rather than the letter....

Jan 29, 21 4:08 pm  · 
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tduds

"Everything in moderation, including moderation."

Jan 29, 21 4:12 pm  · 
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Living in Gin

Thanks for posting this... I've struggled with mental health issues throughout my life, and after nearly a year of being stuck at home due to the pandemic, I've really been feeling the dark shadows creeping back in lately. I've been formally diagnosed with depression and anxiety, I'm pretty certain I'm at least somewhat on the autism spectrum, and lately I've been wondering if I also have ADD and probably some degree of PTSD due to childhood trauma.

For the early part of my career I was generally happy to keep my head down, pump AutoCAD or Revit, and avoid meetings as much as possible. But now I'm a Project Architect and am expected to be much more of the public face of a project, and I find myself bumping up against my mental health issues more than I used to. I find it very hard to stay focused in meetings and retain information, and my general inability to read nonverbal cues has led to more than one misunderstanding with an important client. Like Donna, I also deal with massive Impostor Syndrome, ironically made worse because my lack of confidence in front of the client and contractor has been raised as an issue at my performance reviews.

My employer has been generally supportive, but I haven't yet directly brought up my mental health issues to management. When I've done that with previous employers, I've usually found myself unemployed a short time later, so I've learned to be very cautious.

I think in the short term I need to see a doctor about getting a formal diagnosis for ADD, and if appropriate, getting on some kind of medication for it. But in the longer term, I'm trying to figure out where I belong in the profession. The typical next step in my career track is to become a Project Manager, but I've been around enough PMs to know that I'd probably hate it and not be very good at it. (Nothing against PMs; the good ones are worth their weight in gold. I just don't see myself in that role.) I consider myself an above-average designer with a keen eye for detail and constructibility, so I'd like to capitalize on those strengths. I'm also a decent writer and have been published at various times. But the higher you climb in most firms, the more your job involves client relations and business development, and while I think I'm pretty easy to get along with, and I have a hard time seeing myself in those roles to a large degree.

In my perfect life a few years from now, I'd love to have my own practice, or at least have a leadership role in an established practice -- maybe in partnership with one or more people whose skill sets help fill in the gaps in my own skills -- maybe do some teaching, and hopefully continue writing. But then the Impostor Syndrome kicks in and I'm convinced that I don't have what it takes to run a firm. I've worked in some horribly dysfunctional offices in the past that were somehow successful, but I think a few of those offices were run by people who were independently wealthy and socially connected to a degree that they were able to practice architecture as a hobby. Unless I win the lottery or marry rich someday, I don't have those advantages.

Anybody else deal with these issues? Or more to the point, has anybody successfully overcome them?

Feb 1, 21 11:37 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

We sound very similar, across the board. I was design manager at a design/build firm and operations manager at a panelized construction company; my personality and talents were not a good match for those roles.

I am now reasonably happy working for myself designing homes and renovations, currently with help from a few architect consultants/subcontractors. I should really expand into a real firm with employees but I know from experience that the Peter Principle would kick in again and I'd be unhappy and probably unsuccessful.

Have you done personality testing? I have found learning about my Myers-Briggs type, INTP, to be helpful; I wouldn't be surprised if you found the same.

Feb 2, 21 10:53 am  · 
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SneakyPete

"I've worked in some horribly dysfunctional offices in the past that were somehow successful, but I think a few of those offices were run by people who were independently wealthy and socially connected to a degree that they were able to practice architecture as a hobby. Unless I win the lottery or marry rich someday, I don't have those advantages."

Possibly apocryphal story about my first firm's early years:

One of my bosses was once told "You treat this profession like a hobby!" by his partner. The partner doing the yelling wasn't, as far as I know, wealthy, but the one being yelled at was.

If you have the skills you think you do, you can run a firm. success depends on your metrics combined with an unfortunate amount of good fortune. So many people who run things simply have false bravado ands that seems to keep them from being scrutinized to the degree that employees are.

Feb 2, 21 11:59 am  · 
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INTJ here, although I take Myers-Briggs with a grain of salt.

Feb 2, 21 2:00 pm  · 
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I was on a project team that was going to take the personality test in order to help build team unity and understand each others' personality traits and how they could be better utilized, etc. Turns out they didn't think I was important enough (really they didn't want to pay for me) to have to take the test because I didn't normally work with everyone on the team, and wasn't involved on a daily basis ... so I have no idea what I am. I'm generally curious, but not enough that I really want to take it.

Feb 2, 21 2:09 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

You can find it online if you wanna spend the time.

Feb 2, 21 2:45 pm  · 
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tduds

At a previous job our entire company took the Meyers-Briggs before a company retreat. The results were interesting but more than anything they functioned as an ice-breaker for people in the two offices meeting for the first time. I don't think any management decisions or team building ever came of it.

One funny anecdote is that one of the 16 archetypes in this test was "Architect" and only one person in the office got that result.

Feb 2, 21 2:50 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

This is the most recent Myers-Briggs based test I took, and I have found the supporting information to be very helpful: https://www.16personalities.com/.

I have noticed over the years that INTP and INTJ people tend to like Myers-Briggs; it helps those of us who don't necessarily relate well to others or understand what makes them tick, as well as ourselves.

Those who test as Extravert or especially those who test as Feelers almost never like or put any stock in Myers-Briggs--they don't have to, because they tend to have a more intuitive understanding of people, and/or they don't consider it important. Gross generalizations, I know, but I have seen it repeatedly.

The most benefit comes from reading all of the descriptions, not just "getting labeled."

Another personality test is Enneagram; it's similar but different than Myers-Briggs, and again, it's the follow-up research that is most useful, at least in my experience. ADD/ADHD and ASD are often INTPs and tend to benefit from the self-directed personality research that Myers-Briggs provides.

Feb 2, 21 4:10 pm  · 
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archi_dude

You are just shy. Understand that it's something you can work on. Take it slow, understand your limitations and dont be ashamed it will take you longer to be comfortable in a more social role. Your firm and society will say differently but being a trustworthy, reliable individual contributor I think is a much better asset than a loudmouthed inexperienced young PM.

Feb 2, 21 6:25 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

Archi-dude, "you are just shy" is a dismissive and demeaning statement to someone who has listed multiple legitimate reasons why they struggle. Perhaps you meant it constructively, but as someone with similar traits and experiences as LIG it does not come across that way. I agree with the rest of what you wrote.

Feb 2, 21 6:56 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

x-jla, I might have mentioned it before, but if you're on Facebook I think you'd like the INTP groups I'm in there--several posters share your interest in and approach to discussing politics.

Feb 3, 21 8:53 am  · 
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archi_dude

Or its a normalizing statement that let's one know they aren't alone and get over their shortcomings so they don't self diagnose a list of traits making themselves feel even worse and hopeless.

Feb 3, 21 8:56 am  · 
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Wood Guy

Having grown up being told, "you're just shy, you'll outgrow it" and 20 years later realizing that no, I'm an introvert, have a speech disorder, anxiety and depression, and that there are ways to learn how to deal with all of those instead of just waiting to outgrow being "shy" and the resulting depression and disillusionment with life in general instead of being guided toward resources that would have helped me at a much younger age, from my perspective I would say no, it's not a "normalizing statement." But if you're an extraverted person well suited to today's society, I can see how you could think it would be, so I'm not judging you.

Feb 3, 21 9:05 am  · 
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Apparently I'm a unique personality type - INFJ,-A/-T

Feb 3, 21 10:41 am  · 
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Non Sequitur

I need more letters after my name in my email signature and business card. How do I go about finding out which letters to add? I might need a wider business card.

Feb 3, 21 10:45 am  · 
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Take some version of the Myers / Briggs test. You'll get a whole bunch of letters after your name.

Feb 3, 21 11:00 am  · 
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Alternately, take a bunch of LEED exams.

Feb 3, 21 11:03 am  · 
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Myers Briggs is way less expensive and about as useful.

Feb 3, 21 11:11 am  · 
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Non Sequitur

cool beans. I took the first one that did'nt require an email/account. ESTP-A is my result. Sounds more like horoscope stuff tho, I'm sure I could "see myself" in almost any of them on any given day.

"Entrepreneurs leap before they look, fixing their mistakes as they go, rather than sitting idle, preparing contingencies and escape clauses."

Fun.  I've always said that I'll dive straight in without bother to check if the water is deep enough... let alone, if there is any water, or even a pool.

Feb 3, 21 11:13 am  · 
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Exactly. The Myers / Briggs type test are a bunch of BS.

Feb 3, 21 11:15 am  · 
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I got INFP-A. Reading the profile there was a lot that seemed to resonate, and other items that really didn't seem to describe me. It does seem to describe my inputs on the politics central thread though.

I always wonder if it took these types of test regularly if I'd get similar results. I usually rarely agree or disagree strongly to the statements they present you with. But given the mood I'm in on any particular day I could see myself answering with stronger opinions. Remind me in 6 months to take the test again and we'll see if I get the same result.

Feb 3, 21 12:02 pm  · 
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tduds

Taken the M-B multiple times and I always come out decisively ENTJ. I don't think that would surprise any of the regulars around here.

Feb 3, 21 12:19 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

ENFP / ENFJ (depends on the day) here.

Feb 3, 21 12:21 pm  · 
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Non Sequitur

I was really hoping I'd get NSFW.

Feb 3, 21 1:12 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

The one I took at work came back GTFO.

Feb 3, 21 1:24 pm  · 
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I may be a INFJ,-A/-T but I want to be a GFYA

Feb 3, 21 1:28 pm  · 
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tduds

Chad, what's the "-A/-T" add on? Never seen more than the big 4 letters.

Feb 3, 21 1:34 pm  · 
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according to the website it's -A for assertive types, and -T for turbulent types: https://www.16personalities.com/articles/assertive-advocate-infj-a-vs-turbulent-advocate-infj-t

Not sure how Chad gets both at the same time

Feb 3, 21 1:38 pm  · 
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I'm special. Or so that website says. It's a personality type called the 'Advocate' and comprises only 1% of the population. Again so they say.


I'm a wizzard!


Feb 3, 21 1:42 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

As I noted, personality tests aren't effective for everyone, and on any given day you may find yourself in any of the descriptions. So in some ways it is like astrology. But for some of us, those who find categorizing traits and tendencies as a way to understand others and ourselves, it can be a useful tool. It's based on actual research so there are truths to discover if you want to take the time to look. The initial overview is light at best. A/T is assertive/turbulent. I'm a "T," more of a worry-wart and less decisive than an A.

Feb 3, 21 1:48 pm  · 
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proto

haha, i actually didn't expect it...(& I don't put much earnest faith in it either...)


Feb 4, 21 6:09 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

It's unfortunate that they chose a profession to represent a type. It sends a bad message to anyone in the profession who isn't the type and leads people outside the profession to assume those are shared traits for every architect.

Feb 5, 21 11:55 am  · 
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midlander

i did a personality test during therapy once and the first question literally was "would you rather be a therapist or an architect?" As if one person couldn't actually enjoy both. I asked her if she was trying to switch jobs with me :D fwiw i'd put therapist on my list of 5 alternative careers i'd love to try if i had 150 years to do everything again.

Feb 5, 21 10:17 pm  · 
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Wilma Buttfit

My Myers-Briggs is the Healer/Mediator/Empath/Therapist one. I flip to extrovert easily as the Campaigner/Champion (INFP + a couple of beers = ENFP).

Feb 8, 21 7:35 am  · 
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James Bragg

Guys, all this personality test-type stuff is largely worthless. Do not let yourselves be pigeonholed by anyone, much less by a definition that can be summed up in 4-5 letters.

The human condition is incredibly varied. Each individual knows something the rest of us don't. Everyone is different, and squeezing people's entire lives and experiences into a small labeled box does a great disservice to mental health.

Mar 17, 21 2:43 pm  · 
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Wilma Buttfit

I was diagnosed with mild OCD and chronic depression in my 20's. I was prescribed various anti-depressants but didn't like them so never took them. I was later misdiagnosed with bi-polar by a family doctor who I don't think had much of a clue and shouldn't have been diagnosing. I started on the medication for that but didn't last for more than a few days on it because it was numbing. I couldn't function. I decided I wasn't bi-polar and got another opinion (a few years later). Turns out it was just stress and relationship struggles with my family and not "mental illness" as every indicator was pointing too (everything is a nail when you have a hammer.) I had seen psychologists and medical doctors before but it wasn't until I worked weekly with a social worker where I worked on setting boundaries and being healthy, having mental hygiene, reducing stress. That social worker saved my life and I still think of her and thank her everyday quietly in my mind. I don't really have daily MH problems anymore but they can creep up on me if I'm not careful. I do have above-normal anxiety, but no longer suffer from depression or OCD. So I use the anxiety to fuel my day. I recently reduced my coffee consumption to 1-2 cups a day so even that's down. For me, mental health has gotten consistently better with age.

One of the most important things I learned on my MH journey is that your brain is your most social organ. It's the organ you share with other people almost constantly. Before you start to think there is a malfunction with your brain, consider that there might be some toxic things you are subjecting it to. MH gets a lot of play and so does toxic behavior. They are related.

Feb 2, 21 7:46 am  · 
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midlander

i find a very clear relationship between drinking coffee and my temper. it seems to build up over a few days if i drink 1-2 cups daily and then i'll start being really irritable. so i try to keep it to 4-5 per week.

Feb 2, 21 8:44 am  · 
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randomised

mental hygiene, love that term.

Feb 2, 21 9:52 am  · 
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archanonymous

Hope everyone is winning their battles with MH today. Just got done logging a month of very long hours and i find that it takes me a few weeks to mentally recover. Takes focus and determination to not spin our from here into depression, but at least I'm aware of it. 

Been struggling with anxiety and depression my whole life and the deadline-oriented nature of this business ups the manic aspects of the depression.

Feb 2, 21 11:03 am  · 
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Manic is such an excellent word for so much of what we do in architecture, it's really no wonder mental health issues are rampant. Get rest, y'all!

Feb 2, 21 3:08 pm  · 
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I mentioned this elsewhere but if I didn’t have all the positive effects of the weight loss surgery going on right now, I’d be in trouble. I’ve dealt with depression all my life, and with a pandemic and the constant strive to stay productive during one, if I didn’t have the weight loss and feeling better/more confident that comes from it, I’d be in a serious funk.

Feb 2, 21 11:27 am  · 
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citizen

It's funny that just reading through this thread is overwhelming me a little.  Learning that other folks struggle with identity and relationships and worth and work and worry and focus... comforts me that I'm not the freak I fear, just another soul doing their best in this world.  Thanks to everyone for that gift.

It's WORK (always in caps) that I've allowed to take over my psyche-- at least that's the nominal issue or focus.  That plus some need for adrenaline or other kind of rush pushes me to distractions, eating up every moment except those remaining ones necessary to do an actually decent job just as the timer runs out.  (Think every bomb-disarming scene you've ever seen in a movie.)  After that, I almost don't know what to do with myself until I sense the next deadline looming.  These patterns have been present for a while, but it's only since lockdown and a death in the family that all of it seems ratcheted up to 11 now.

I'm on the market for a therapist to dig into this stuff with.  That process helped me a lot some years ago.

Feb 3, 21 2:12 pm  · 
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randomised

“ That plus some need for adrenaline or other kind of rush pushes me to distractions, eating up every moment except those remaining ones necessary to do an actually decent job just as the timer runs out. (Think every bomb-disarming scene you've ever seen in a movie.) After that, I almost don't know what to do with myself until I sense the next deadline looming.”

I’m exactly like this, since high school...always delaying finalising things, there’s always more to research and discover, new concepts to try and test, while the clock is ticking and the anxiety starts building up in the back of your head. Until all panic takes over and late nights working to finish it all. And after the work is done and the deadline met you tell yourself that next time you’ll do things differently...But the pandemic and working from home has also forced me to really do change things, can’t “waste” time that’s simply not there anymore...

Feb 3, 21 3:02 pm  · 
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I like talking with a therapist every other week because frankly she is a completely uninterested party to whom I can say anything without judgment. It’s wonderful! I don’t owe her any of my mental energy or empathy. It’s amazing.

Feb 3, 21 9:29 pm  · 
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citizen

Exactly, Donna. Trained, paid listener.

Feb 4, 21 12:23 am  · 
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I read today the comment that “we don’t all have mental illness, but we all have mental health” and it struck me hard. If you’re fortunate enough to be reading this thread and feeling like you can’t identify with anything here that is fantastic! But please continue to be aware that you need to take care of yourself, and also to have empathy for others who aren’t as fortunate. Life can be hard, and wonderful, and hard again. And wonderful again.

Feb 3, 21 9:27 pm  · 
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James Bragg

Donna, I would argue that those 'feeling like you can’t identify with anything here'  are not human.

Everyone, sooner or later, struggles with stuff. The reality is that many people tend to stick their head in the sand, or to be in denial about their mental health. But we *all* have - or have had - to deal with difficulties in our daily lives. And most of what we deal with originates from how we see the world - our mental map, so to speak.

Some may call it stress, some may call it mental health. Some may just say 'today I lost it'.

I have yet to come across to a person who's only experienced bliss in life.

Mar 17, 21 3:56 pm  · 
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mightyaa

I have been diagnosed as psychopathic. Not kidding, tons of testing, etc. with a licensed psychologist my parents made me see. I was on the backside of feeling suicidal about my third year in architecture school. So I stopped seeing the psychologist to avoid the label. That was 30 years ago; back when I wasn’t going to accept I’m remotely like that. I didn’t feel like a stabby stabby sort of psycho. At the time, my understanding of it was a ‘lack of emotion’ and empathy. Now I know it’s a spectrum.

I do however have a severe distrust of psychologist and councilors. A horror story for you parents. My daughter (partially deaf) we discovered was regularly locked in a padded closet at school for most the day; google that shit, it’s real. By junior high, she was suicidal and a cutter; so we had her in counseling, and she was committed once for a two week stay at a wellness center.  Anyway, this councilor deals with trauma a lot but it’s normally child abuse.  So instead of focusing on the trauma of locking a elementary school kid in the closet for years, she focused and led my daughter down a rabbit hole of identifying abuse at home. Once she convinced my daughter there was abuse, she called child services. My daughter tends to ‘embellish’ stories to gain approval; so slapping the dog’s butt for peeing on the floor becomes her being scared I was going to kill the dog. And guess what? because I told my daughter I too went to see a psychologist when I was young trying to warm her up to the idea it is ok, she knew I had been diagnosed as a psychopath and had told her councilor… Her councilor apparently, not ever having met me, decided that meant she wasn’t safe and maybe she should be scared of me. She called child services… so there were the police interviews during ‘wellness checks’ and discussions with attorneys and state child services calls and interviews with everyone individually in the household and regular visits for a few months.

The schools still use padded closets, my daughter continued being a cutter, and our lawsuit died; the school attorney latched onto our problems at home which poked serious holes as to why our daughter was cutting herself and suicidal. Extra sugar on top; the school psychologist (who knew of the lawsuit) pulled my eldest in to ‘talk about how he was doing with all this’, and got him to admit he has felt suicidal; instant 48 hour watch at a ‘wellness center’.  Blowing another hole in the litigation. Btw; see the money thread… this was part of the hell that played a large role in my firm failing as I dealt with this. Other traumas were happening as well; at least my psychopathy dulls and can shut off the emotional overloads... score 1 for being mentally unstable but still not stabby stabby unstable.

btw; I'll probably delete this within a week. Not good shit to have floating on the internet.

Feb 4, 21 12:25 pm  · 
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mightyaa was this in the US?

Feb 4, 21 12:32 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

Holy shit.

Feb 4, 21 1:06 pm  · 
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Damn dude, that's some shit to deal with. I hope the sharing helps but +1 on deleting it sooner rather than later before it gets logged into the internet archive. Bare minimum, maybe ask the mods to hide the post?

Feb 4, 21 1:16 pm  · 
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citizen

Wow. Thank you for sharing that, mighty.  Sounds like you've done well keeping it together in the face of all odds and idiots.

I agree with wariness and avoidance of social-services types out to avenge imaginary wrongs, potentially poisoning young minds. (When you're a self-righteous, poorly trained hammer, every kid's home life is a nail. My brother's family suffered at the hands a destructive 'are you sure you weren't abused?' counselor.)

Feb 4, 21 1:28 pm  · 
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citizen

And I second that you should probably pull this down. I still recall that person obsessed with a certain spreadsheet a few years ago getting offended, then launching into online research to ID their offenders here. Scary.

Feb 4, 21 1:32 pm  · 
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mightyaa

Yes Donna... this is the US. Seriously, google the padded rooms in schools; I didn't know about them at all. Lots of Districts use them, not just here.

Feb 4, 21 2:15 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

https://goldmedalsafetypadding.com/safety-padding-industries/school-safety-padding/

Reading that page made me throw up in my mouth.

Feb 4, 21 2:20 pm  · 
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mightyaa

Btw; this isn’t the most traumatizing part of my life story. Plenty more to add to the shit show; I’ve skipped a lot… Part of me is thankful for my mental condition. Others used horrible coping mechanisms and escapism inflicting more trauma. Unfortunately, I doubt I’m deep in that spectrum… I still hurt, I still have to practice coping exercises and mental tricks refined over years, that is my ‘norm’. There are good mental health professionals and bad ones. The key is finding the good ones which at least in my experience tend to be somewhat rare. If you are seeking help, I know the better ones tend to give homework and focus on healing more than rehashing. They’ll also do tests. Drugs aren’t candy, aren’t a solution, and have side effects too… I’ve got some more stories on that and more scars.

Feb 4, 21 2:47 pm  · 
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I've actually been involved on both ends of this (the padded/isolation room thing).

I was once punished in 6th grade with a day of "in-school suspension" where I was basically locked in an isolation room like this the entire time. It could have been padded, I actually don't fully recall, but it was something a kid should never have to deal with (full stop).

I've been involved in designing actual behavioral healthcare facilities in hospitals, and we didn't use padded isolation rooms like this. There is no reason a padded room needs to be the solution (full stop).

P.s. The school I attended in 6th grade has since been demolished ... the isolation room along with it.

Feb 4, 21 2:50 pm  · 
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mightyaa

Hey, I was thinking that as architects, this is one area we can change; Refuse to design these cells into the schools we design. Kinda pisses me off knowing an architect out there designed this space into a elementary school.

Feb 4, 21 3:38 pm  · 
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Non Sequitur

... I'm going to go give little NS a big hug after reading this. Most schools here have safe spaces but all it is a corner with a bean-bag chair and books, often inside a little tent, so the kids can distance themselves from their environment when they need to.

Feb 4, 21 3:42 pm  · 
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spickney2000

@mightyaa I'm not a parent but am shocked at how your daughter was treated at school by people who are there to educate her.....Who puts a child in a padded closet? I might be a bit naive in this matter but schools here in the UK do not have padded rooms and I've never heard anyone ever mention one.

Apr 26, 21 12:35 pm  · 
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randomised

Wow mighty, I didn’t even know such spaces existed in schools, in prisons or mental hospitals yes I can get that. But if any school would ever lock my kid up in such a space because they can’t or refuse to engage with them I’d burn that place to the fucking ground (over the weekend obviously)...<br><br>My eldest (almost 4yo) will start elementary school in 6 weeks, am already anxious and nervous about that, reading this just freaks me out. <br><br>Also not helping that I just read an obit yesterday of a 14yo boy that died of a combination of a new 3-MMC designer drug, carbon monoxide and this fucking pandemic, he got depressed because of the whole lockdown situation, not being able to see his friends from school or do his sports, was forced to change schools because his grades dropped in the middle of a pandemic, etc. and changed from a happy outgoing and social kid into a recluse almost overnight unrecognisable to his parents, family and friends. <br><br>Am really afraid the mental health of an entire generation of kids will be seriously impacted for a very long time because of all this shit. 

Feb 4, 21 5:21 pm  · 
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bowling_ball

I'm sure you're right. That's terrible. It's not all horrible though - there are the other 50% of kids who are shy or introverted or bullied, who are thriving. We ask them to put up with our outgoing culture for whatever reason, and I think this will help even the playing field. Let the extroverts feel like the introverts for a while. Maybe they'll even learn from it.

Feb 4, 21 6:01 pm  · 
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randomised

Don’t know if “let the extroverts feel like the introverts for a while” is the way to go
It’s not like the introverts fee like extroverts normally, they still feel like introverts but forced to live in a society that apparently rewards extrovertism. As if extroverts have a choice needing the attention all the time, my god I would be exhausted if I always needed external confirmation.

Feb 5, 21 2:36 am  · 
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Wood Guy

And the extraverts say, "my god I would be exhausted if I needed so much time to myself."

Feb 5, 21 11:23 am  · 
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rando - I've designed about a dozen school in my career ranging from grade school - high school. Only in one of these schools where there 'padded rooms' and that was in a school for students with severe emotional and mental trauma. These 5' x 5'' padded rooms (colored peptobismol pink) didn't have doors and were for students who where having a violent, uncontrolled outburst. 

 The room is intended to be used as a time our room for the child to tire themselves out by literally bouncing off the walls without hurting themselves or a teacher. The teachers stands at the doorway (no door) and doesn't have to try and restrain the student. For really bad cases where the student could hurt themselves or is having a mental health crisis the teachers would call EMS and the student would be taken to a hospital.

Feb 5, 21 11:49 am  · 
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randomised

I didn’t get that from mighty’s post above...it also didn’t seem necessary to be put in such a room in that case or EA’s for that matter. I’m afraid having such a room makes schools want to use them...

Feb 5, 21 1:15 pm  · 
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bowling_ball

I can remember exactly zero similar incidents during my time at school in the 80s. And no, kids haven't changed that much. This is a crutch being used by teachers and boards who see kids as less than human. Disgusting.

Feb 5, 21 2:47 pm  · 
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This might be a case of "how it started ... how it's going." Also roads being paved with good intentions, yada yada yada. I'm not disagreeing with what Chad says (I've been in on those discussions too). What I'm seeing is that while they might have initially been good about their use, I think people get lazy and take shortcuts and maybe they evolve over time to be used in a way that was never intended. It's a administration and people problem, not so much a design problem.

Feb 5, 21 3:42 pm  · 
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mightyaa

And oddly enough, a budget problem. Before cuts, you had a team in the 'resource center'; like speech therapist, sign language interpreters, audiologist, physical therapy, etc. After cuts; just one person and rotating specialist shared across the District; like the speech therapist might be there just on Mondays. So if you have more than one kid in there, you put the others in the closet until you can deal with them individually. That one person also sitting on their rear; they're back to back appointments with a individual student that's scheduled to be in there. And the trouble my daughter would do is more like: she'll look you in the eye, reach up, and turn the hearing aids off letting you know she could care less what you are saying... as a father, I've gotten that treatment a lot throughout middle school and high school. oh.. and the HS sneaky; hearing aids are bluetooth now, so she'll sync to her phone and stream music like a headset. A lot of schools use these rooms as punitive; special needs kids don't get sent to the office, they go here. 

Feb 5, 21 5:30 pm  · 
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In the case that I mentioned it's important to note that in my career time out rooms are a rare, and specialized occurrence. In the school I mentioned that uses such rooms the students all have severe emotional issues - this is not a typical school. Each classroom has three teachers, each with degrees in counseling. If a student has to be put in the time out room a teachers goes with them and remains with them until the student calms down. An on stall phycologist is also called to the time out room whenever it is used. Students are never left along with a single teacher, ever. Typically a student is in a time out room for 10-20 minutes. I have no idea if these time out rooms are a good idea or not, I'm just conveying my experience with designing a school that has two of them.

Feb 8, 21 4:44 pm  · 
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Jaetten

We are not defined by our ailments, but how we deal with them... Or words to that effect.

I feel for anyone who is going through or has gone through mental health issues. They can be truly debilitating, even if others cannot see it. People make an assumption that if you look ok, then you are ok.

I was diagnosed with depression at 8 years old, after my parents went through a messy divorce and I struggled with it until I was in my early 20's. Roughly 15 years, mostly in silence, without letting anyone know. I went through high school being the 'odd one out' who was never picked or involved in group things. I had just one friend. During school, I got shot in the head with an air pistol (too low power to cause damage), assaulted with scissors and had an improvised knife held to my neck and pinned against a window by a crowd of people. 

Through all of that, I never made a sound, nor showed emotion. Neither did I talk about it. I got no help from others, not even teaching staff.

They say that if you don't react to bullies they stop. That's a lie, it brasses them off and makes them more determined, and they will keep going until they get a reaction.

Even when on holiday, I faced aggression from other children and even into adulthood in employment.

I grew up thinking that I was the problem.

Once I reached my 20's, after a period on medication I buried everything. It wasn't until my 30's that I finally managed to deal with it with the help of counselling.

Sometimes, when thinking about it I feel the sting. Sometimes I regret not being able to deal with those issues earlier, but I'm glad that I eventually did.

I've never written about this before, so I'm not sure if it reads that well, but nonetheless it describes what happened.


If you or anyone you know is going through mental health issues, you're not alone. 

Feb 5, 21 5:25 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

You've done well to make it through all of that! Bullies are the worst, though they are often dealing with their own struggles as well, they have no right to take it out on others. Kudos for getting counseling to help deal with it.

Feb 5, 21 8:19 pm  · 
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It makes me so sad to think about kids feeling unsafe at school. I’m sorry you had to deal with that Jaetten. And especially that no adult would step in to help.

Feb 8, 21 6:54 am  · 
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Jaetten

Thank you, I hold no grudge to those involved. I know that some of them has serious issues at home. Thing is, kids don’t talk and if they did (myself included) situations like that could be avoided. Not always, but I suspect a good amount could.

Feb 11, 21 3:28 am  · 
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If nothing else comes out of these posts, it's good to know you're not alone.

It helps that I'm not an architect and am retired to boot, but my solace has been architecture the past year. I've been building models and thinking about them. The models, of course, are rough, but they encourage me to study a building thoroughly, with engagement. There's something therapeutic in just stacking one thing on top of another. Construction is both a practice and metaphor for putting things together and keeping them together, something we all need to do. And architecture can give perspective.

For example, last September, while doubly confined by Covid and the horrific smoke from the the Oregon fires (I'm in Portland), I made a model of Mies van der Rohe's Lemke House:

https://returningcenter.wordpr...

Which got me outside myself for several days. Among many other things, I wondered what life was like for Mies has last years in Germany. We're not the only ones going through a storm. Or two.

I do have other things to do and am not doing them.

A year out, though, I'm running out of steam. . . .

Feb 5, 21 7:37 pm  · 
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"his last years in Germany"

Feb 8, 21 6:27 pm  · 
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∑ π ∓ √ ∞

Here's a paradox - I think - when I get on 12% beer, I feel invincible, whnen  I dont, I think abpuit how long I've wanted to be dead....

Feb 7, 21 6:50 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

I'm guessing you're on the 12% now?

Feb 7, 21 7:58 pm  · 
1  · 
∑ π ∓ √ ∞

I know, right? The armor of invincibiloty!

Feb 7, 21 8:08 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

As I told a friend who really enjoys their wine and weed--no matter how many depressants I take, I just don't feel any better.

Feb 8, 21 10:27 am  · 
2  · 
∑ π ∓ √ ∞

It's fleeting.

Feb 8, 21 11:32 am  · 
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SneakyPete

Miracle Alien Cookies is my mood enhancer of choice

Feb 8, 21 2:03 pm  · 
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design4mind

It was not until I spent almost a year going in and out of mental health facilities that I found the value of design in everyday life. Left with only dark, miserable thoughts of my own life I constantly observed what was going on around me, which lead me to see the failures within the design world. More specifically, the brutal lack of systematic sympathy for patients within the walls at every design turn. 

I decided to steer away from my undergraduate policy focus to concentrate on how I may better the world of mental health with improved, and thoughtful design practices. While that was only several years ago, and I'm now in architecture school after being diagnosed and treated for bipolar disorder I am just grateful to be able to observe the world around me and see the unbelievable potential so many have to produce change (no matter how many iterations it takes). 

As a patient of the mental health system, and as an up and coming designer with lots to learn, I just want to say thank you to anyone deciding to use their creativity for good. For all I know I could end up back in a mental health facility, but I'm confident there are people out there working to help; even when they're not directed effected. 

Feb 8, 21 4:31 pm  · 
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bowling_ball

I have a very close family member with bipolar. He's a design director who's worked for the biggest and best product companies in the world (Nike, Apple, etc). I can't tell you where he is now because it'll give away his identity, but he's currently helping his employer (billion dollar company) go net zero with their entire product line. Keep it up!

Feb 8, 21 10:41 pm  · 
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I think the Architecture profession is full of people and situations that can cause trauma/PTSD.  Losing your job, emotional abuse from colleagues, clients, consultants, or contractors are too common in the profession. Over work with some bosses not knowing or respecting boundaries and the culture of working 60+ hours at the expense of sleep, heath and social engagement outside of work take their tool. With Covid forcing so many of us working from home the small moments of social engagement we get at work from our colleagues is now missing.  We as a profession are sacrificing too much and maybe we need to hold the line at 40-45 hours a week and not tolerate crummy job situations such as late pay, excessive hours, abuse or harassment. The mentality of firm management (mostly small firms in my experience) that the client comes above all other things is insane and needs to be stopped. 

We don't do our best work when we are physically and emotionally exhausted.

Just my thoughts

Over and OUT

Peter N

Feb 8, 21 10:32 pm  · 
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bowling_ball

I'll admit to bending over for my clients all too often, but I don't work overtime and I specifically ask my staff to do the same. I tell them - very clearly - that if they're working overtime, it's because management has screwed up. If there's an emergency that requires it, then staff bank the hours and I ask them to take that time off within two weeks, ideally, because they probably need a break. Then again, I'm not chasing magazine covers.

Feb 8, 21 10:46 pm  · 
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Almosthip

I recently divorced my toxic addict husband.  Been 2 years free from a 20 year bad marriage.  He is currently living on the other side of the country. Whoop!!   The stress of a bad marriage was huge, effected my health, body and mind.  I was loosing my hair and was super skinny with weight loss.  My 3 children are all adults now, I only have 1 left at home and I can say I have never been happier in my life. And my hair grew back thicker!

Work is work, always been able to manage a good work / life balance, even with the extra work of the Syllabus program.   

Feb 9, 21 1:50 pm  · 
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I'm sorry you had to go through all of that. I'm glad you're doing better.

Feb 9, 21 2:46 pm  · 
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atelier nobody

Good on you for getting out of a bad situation. Especially good on you for doing something as hard as the Syllabus program to make the second half of your life better.

Feb 9, 21 2:52 pm  · 
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Almosthip

Thanks :) Remember the show Night Court and Harry's father would say "but I feel much better now" with a huge smile. That's how I feel..lol

Feb 9, 21 3:16 pm  · 
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atelier nobody

I'm never married myself, but I watched both of my parents' lives improve dramatically once they realized they didn't belong together - I wish they'd done it at least 5 years sooner, if not 10, since it was kind of a stressful household for my sister and me growing up.

Feb 9, 21 3:33 pm  · 
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I met with a residential client recently, who I had done work for previously when she and her husband were still married and living in a big ass house. We got to talking about age and I said “yeah but you’re much younger than I am” But it turns out she’s actually four years older than me. I was agog and said how is it that you look so great?! And she laughed and replied “Divorce!!” Good for you Almosthip!

Feb 11, 21 6:55 am  · 
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Mood today. We’re humans, not tardigrades.  It’s ok to have emotions.

Feb 11, 21 6:57 am  · 
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citizen

Is fear okay? Because that image freaks me out.

Feb 11, 21 3:24 pm  · 
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Have you seen Ant Man and The Wasp? Tardigrades!

Feb 11, 21 3:58 pm  · 
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citizen

.Image result for cringe gif

Feb 11, 21 4:35 pm  · 
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archi_dude

job descriptions like these make me just stay at my current overworked role.


"timelines are often tight, if not impossible, given the regulatory mandates. Construction managers in this industry as well as our project managers need to be aggressive and at the same time great people managers that are creative and never say never as they develop the construction timelines and budgets for projects"



Feb 13, 21 9:51 am  · 
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thisisnotmyname

It sounds like very typical idiot CM-PM language. Because of the effects extreme weather events and COVID on members of the building teams, basically no projects I'm involved with are getting done on schedule. Obsessing about schedules in this moment is foolish and will only make you and your staff crazy.

Feb 18, 21 4:00 pm  · 
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∑ π ∓ √ ∞

This Helps, a lot.


https://youtu.be/2ocykBzWDiM

Feb 18, 21 9:30 am  · 
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Wood Guy

^^thumbs-down as a joke. Sort of...

Feb 18, 21 10:12 am  · 
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Wilma Buttfit

Those jeans are back in style!

Feb 18, 21 10:34 am  · 
1  · 

I'm not clicking on those links. Nope. Not gonna do it.

Feb 18, 21 10:55 am  · 
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Wood Guy

Chad, don't be afraid. B3 is never going to let you down.

Feb 18, 21 11:35 am  · 
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Oh damn, now I'm glad I didn't click on the links.

Feb 18, 21 12:08 pm  · 
1  · 
∑ π ∓ √ ∞

Go on, do it! 60fps!

Feb 18, 21 12:59 pm  · 
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Wilma Buttfit

I just now realized where several family members got their dance moves.

Feb 18, 21 1:25 pm  · 
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proto

4k, 60fps REALLY enhances it...

Feb 18, 21 6:46 pm  · 
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Actually, I totally dance like that. The hand motions and everything. Hack into my home security system kitchen camera some evening while I'm making dinner and listening to Bob Marley and you'll totally see me doing it.

Feb 19, 21 9:57 am  · 
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tduds

The Northwest got walloped last week by a snow / ice storm. Mostly ice in my area. My house lost power for ~3 days, but luckily we were at my in-laws, who did not lose power. Some people in my area are still without power, almost 10 days later.

As for us, well the electricity came back on but the internet is *still* out. A limb took out the cable from the pole to our house and the maintenance crews are so backed up the earliest they could get a truck out to us is this Wednesday (it went out *last* Saturday). So, my entire home-office is dormant. Got a laptop and decamped to my in-laws' ADU, where at least there's wi-fi. But now I'm spread between 4 devices that aren't syncing correctly and I'm back to the good old days of moving files with a USB Stick. As if things weren't already complicated enough.

I'd say the lack of internet has been a huge boon for my personal mental health (I've read like 2.5 books! I started sketching more! I went for a run!) but it's making my workday unbearably disheveled. 

Feb 22, 21 1:20 pm  · 
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Non Sequitur

how much snow/ice are you guys getting?

Feb 22, 21 1:44 pm  · 
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proto

[I'm also in pdx] We had 3 days of storm & unseasonable cold producing ice/snow, then a warmup. Trees were failing under the snow/ice; and then, when it melted, they were failing as the loads reduced. Neighbor across the street from me had a tree down on his house with a branch speared thru his attic into his dining room. We had ice damming on our house. PDX metro is melted at this point. Our power/data are above ground here & areas with trees really saw a bunch of damage & outages. We were out at my place for 3 days, but am just hearing that my tax guy is now 8 days without power. Places south like Salem had mostly ice/sleet.

Feb 22, 21 1:49 pm  · 
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tduds

Before the melt started we had 2-3" of solid ice on everything. We were just south of the snow line, so we only got freezing rain and high winds. Most of the damage in the region w as done by falling trees + limbs.

Feb 22, 21 1:53 pm  · 
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proto

yeah, the winds too...forgot about that

Feb 22, 21 1:57 pm  · 
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Non Sequitur

Got it, thanks. We typically get one 25-30mm ice storm per year here and a few 30cm (or one 40+) snow days so most of the weak trees get culled naturally thus there is, fortunately, few sudden mass felling of trees. One tree did fall on my buddy's car during a 50mm ice storm last year and left live power cables all over the yard. I'm looking out my office window right now and laughing at the "weather advisory" notice. Ooooo, 4" of snow. time to panic.

Feb 22, 21 2:05 pm  · 
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randomised

We had 2 days of snow, max 10cm and a week below 0 Celsius temperatures, people loved it, ice skating on the canals or on the lakes, so much nostalgia...the cracking of the ice while skating when you’re the first one on it, must be one of my favourite sounds.

Feb 22, 21 2:44 pm  · 
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Non Sequitur

"cue heavy french-canadian accent" 

 Amateurs.

sorry.

Feb 22, 21 2:46 pm  · 
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proto

The Willamette Valley, here in the PNW, is def not used to cold winter weather. Snow on the valley floor is typically an oddity. Many native OR friends here don't have winter tires unless they are skiers. We are a zone that does the stereotypical milk/bread/TP panic when the ground gets white.

Feb 22, 21 2:55 pm  · 
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tduds

I grew up outside Boston so I definitely understand winter weather. but the Portland area has some, to say the least, unique characteristics that make snow / ice events here a nightmare. Here's a good thread about it from last week https://twitter.com/PDXJenni/status/1359909598715547650

Feb 22, 21 4:10 pm  · 
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Non Sequitur

well, that was a well spent 10mins... what a trip and I did not even need to show a negative corona test result to go. In that time, I'd estimate about 10mm of snow fell here.

Feb 22, 21 4:33 pm  · 
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citizen

My brother's family outside of Salem finally got power back last night, after 9 days without. A couple of nights at a motel with heat and hot water got them through the final stretch.

Feb 22, 21 5:10 pm  · 
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∑ π ∓ √ ∞

tduds, you know what's weird? it's that Minnesotans can handle snow fine, but they suck at rain, in spring/summer/fall.

Feb 22, 21 8:09 pm  · 
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citizen

I like to think we have something to make up for all our hack politicians and idiot celebrities.

Personally, I'd prefer honest officials and some occasional snow.

Feb 22, 21 9:24 pm  · 
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tduds

The past few days have been sunny and near 60. The ice is long gone but the downed trees are still being cleaned up. My mental state is so tied to sunlight, I'm realizing as I age. It's starting to get light around 6-6:15 and I wake up naturally by 6:45 every day. In the darkest days of December I was struggling to pry myself out of bed before 8. Also drinking less alcohol on the weekdays seems to help ;)

Mar 4, 21 11:11 am  · 
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citizen

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Feb 22, 21 5:09 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

I'm really tired of the eggheads who make the software upon which we rely to make our profession function constantly changing things to a degree which one cannot arrive at a consistent workflow that will survive unadulterated longer than one project. It's bleeding me dry financially and psychologically. STOP CHANGING SHIT THAT WORKS FINE JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK IT'S BETTER SOME OTHER FUCKING WAY.

Feb 22, 21 6:12 pm  · 
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citizen

planned ob·so·les·cence /noun/

a policy of producing consumer goods that rapidly become obsolete and so require replacing, achieved by frequent changes in design, termination of the supply of spare parts, and the use of nondurable materials.

Unfortunately, a longstanding economic and business practice.  Pairs well with 190-proof grain alcohol.

Feb 22, 21 6:40 pm  · 
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Non Sequitur

Something something grabbed you by the balls something.

Feb 22, 21 7:10 pm  · 
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bowling_ball

I overheard some staff talking about door schedules in AutoCAD vs Revit today... I had a giggle as I was about to throw my laptop out the window because of MS Word - it's still useless after all these years and probably even more frustrating than ever. The fact that we still have to use Word templates to submit proposals for some projects is just ridiculous.

Feb 23, 21 8:58 pm  · 
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Pencils, vellum, and erasers are unchanged and still available, but board covers are getting scarce.

Mar 3, 21 9:20 pm  · 
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Sunshine in Indianapolis today. Sunshine seriously helps so much.

Mar 3, 21 9:39 am  · 
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∑ π ∓ √ ∞

We got that, plus 40's!

Mar 3, 21 9:51 am  · 
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It's going to be 65 F here!

Mar 3, 21 10:04 am  · 
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I've found that my mental health improves dramatically when I eliminate all 'news' media. 

Mar 3, 21 9:22 pm  · 
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citizen

If you mean eliminating all the various personnel, Miles, I'll drive the getaway car for you. If you mean just eliminating contact and exposure, that's good too.

Mar 4, 21 1:20 am  · 
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citizen

btw, nice to have you back.

Mar 4, 21 3:40 am  · 
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randomised

Be prepared for a decline if you stick around here.

Mar 4, 21 6:15 pm  · 
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tduds

I had a major realization this week. I'm not sure if this resonates with anybody but it's really helped me frame my days...

I've started noticing my energy / focus is more task-dependent than time-dependent. Meaning, if I can dive into a single task with few or no interruptions, I can happily plod away at that for 8, 10, or more hours and feel energized by it. But if I have a big list of 20 minute tasks (or if my focus is constantly shaken by interruptions), I feel completely drained after just a few hours. 

It's like the effort to switch gears is what actually saps my energy. It's not that I can't work for a full 8 hours, but I can't switch gears more than 4-5 times without a solid break.

I don't have a great solution for this yet, especially since I'm spread across multiple small projects at the moment. But recognizing it has at least helped me cope with my seemingly random, previously inexplicable bouts of exhaustion.

Mar 5, 21 4:23 pm  · 
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bowling_ball

Interesting. I'm the opposite. Switching isn't easy but I get energized by working on a million little things. But at 5 o'clock, I'm wiped out. I don't have the option of working on just one project any more, so I've got to make it work for me. On a side note, I started back at therapy this week and while I know it's going to help in the long run, I know I'm going to have to start facing my challenges in a healthier way rather than pushing everything down inside and ignoring my emotions. That said, it's beer o'clock. Cheers


Mar 5, 21 5:11 pm  · 
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curtkram

a lot of times when i switch from one thing to the next i take a walk down and up the stairwell or pace the corridor for a minute. also look outside at something far away for a minute.

Mar 5, 21 6:58 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

Interesting observation. Rings true for me. I usually pride myself for being able to switch gears quickly, and often. But for the last few years it seems to be getting more difficult. By mid-afternoon I need a break to clear my brain before my evening shift. And now that you mention it, I can definitely only focus on one project when I work an evening shift.

Mar 8, 21 8:32 am  · 
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square.

since wfh, i've stopped measuring my days in hours worked and instead on tasks completed. the 9 hour day feels like such a relic of physical office life. instead, now i feel like i have much more autonomy to determine my schedule based on the work that is in front of me, and nothing else.

i'm never going back.

Mar 17, 21 1:27 pm  · 
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James Bragg

For me it's not about the amount of time it takes to complete a specific task - it's got to do more with 'what type of task do I feel like tackling right now' or also 'what task can I tackle with the mental resources I have available right now' meaning, sometimes I am too tired to do conceptual work but I can do more menial tasks.

Probably the ability to best allocate tasks according to mental disposition is a skill in itself.

Mar 17, 21 2:00 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

I hit a wall last week, or perhaps a floor--I realized just how screwed I am on schedule, and my mom is in a lot of pain and declining, with me as her main support. My wife is the emotional support for her mom, who is also in declining health, and for her sister who has mental illness. None of them have therapists (except the sister) so I'm usually the rock who supports everyone else. My wife's dad, who was also a close friend and mentor of mine, died a painful death at the end of 2019 and everyone has been mourning heavily. Plus all of the Covid- and politics-related bullshit. I've learned some emotional intelligence but it does not come naturally so being a caregiver requires a lot of energy from me. 

I had a bit of a breakdown, told my BS + Beer team that I'm taking a hiatus, emailed clients to let them know why I'm so far behind schedule, and told several potential clients that I probably can't get to them this year in case they want to look elsewhere. I don't admit defeat easily so that was a hard thing to do, but I feel a bit lighter now. (On a more positive note, I also signed a new home that could not be more perfect for me, for twice the fee I would normally charge, and will be my only large project this fall--a welcome relief from juggling way too many projects right now.) 

I got in touch with a therapist recommended by an architect friend. She seems pretty ideal but she's not inexpensive--$250/hr, which she said she would discount to $225/hr for six months of weekly meetings. I'm naturally frugal so spending almost $1K a month seems like a huge expense, but accounting for time lost while meeting with her I'll work about 3.5 hours a week to pay for therapy. She also does executive/business coaching so if it goes well I'm hoping she can help me get my broken parts back together in a way that helps me take advantage of the significant opportunities I see in my business, as well as life.

She is based in NYC, one reason her rates are on the high side. I'm hoping that her location means she is skilled in working with the relatively intellectual, driven type that I am, rather than finding someone local to my rural area. (Yeah, I'm bigoted against this area. I've been here for more than half of my 47 years.) She wants a 6-month commitment but my wife suggested trying her for a month first. I have only tried therapy once, briefly, long ago, so I don't know how it usually works. Is her fee high? Will the changes justify it? Is it dumb to want to combine personal therapy with business coaching? 

Mar 17, 21 8:52 am  · 
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Dude, sorry to hear about your troubles. Tell the therapist with the six-month commitment to go fuck herself. Take the money you would throw away on that and spend it on a home health care aide. Even if it's only a few hours a day or a few days a week it will give you a break. A friend is in a similar spot and found a Jamacian woman who is like Mother Teresa and now lives with them. Room and board is a form of payment and there are plenty of people who are in deep shit right now, more so than usual. Also, if you can do some yoga and meditation, it's important to take care of yourself, and stress is a killer. Good luck.

Mar 17, 21 10:18 am  · 
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square.

i mean the rate might be high, perhaps there are other options, but i think you're doing the right thing by seeking therapy, which i know is hard. i'm also frugal and wasn't a fan of spending money, but i did therapy several years ago, for about the same length of time, and it changed everything for me regarding family issues. can't imagine where i'd be without it.

maybe it's even a business expense??

Mar 17, 21 10:26 am  · 
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midlander

this is very difficult. the family stress will always make everything else seem impossible. from my experience that fee is reasonable, and if you find the therapist helpful, absolutely worth it.

Mar 17, 21 10:37 am  · 
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archanonymous

I've tried therapy a few times and for the reasons you state I always end up being more stressed about it than less. But would never discourage someone from trying it! 

I like Miles' suggestion to take that money and spend it lightening the load from these other parts of your life - either with a home health care aide, so yoga or meditation classes, or put that $1000 a month towards hiring help for your business... lots of ways to help yourself.

Mar 17, 21 10:46 am  · 
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atelier nobody

Finding a therapist you have a good rapport with is vitally important. In a perfect world I wish all therapists offered, say, 3 sessions for no out-of-pocket (ie free if not covered by insurance), but even if paying out of pocket I would treat early therapy sessions like dating - the first session is primarily to determine whether there'll be a second, second to decide on a third, and only on the third session should you be thinking about a long term relationship. Cross your fingers you don't have to try 1-3 sessions with very many before you find "the one", but connecting with the right therapist is worth the trouble, IMHO.

A therapist asking for a 6 month commitment before the first session is exactly the same as a potential partner asking for the same before the first date.

Mar 17, 21 1:49 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

I have no advice, but want to give you encouragement and let you know I respect you for the work you do and value you bring to the discussions here and elsewhere.

Mar 17, 21 1:56 pm  · 
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citizen

I'm sorry to hear of all those challenges piled up for you, WG.  That's a ton of stuff.  Lightening your load by deleting some stuff on the to-do list is wise here-- you report that it already helps your mental state, which is my experience, too.

Getting help as needed (therapy, home healthcare, etc) is also worth pursuing, as folks here point out. I'd argue that if the providers are good, the cost is generally worth it, at least for now. That said, the pricey Big Apple shrink who wants an extended commitment sends up red flags for me. The remote capability that makes her a viable option also applies to many other therapists, of course. I just spent some time looking for and starting with a therapist, whom so far is a good fit. I feel better and less burdened already, just having someone to fully listen to my stuff and offer some feedback. A good therapist will be akin to all of the positive counsel you get here on MHC, hopefully with none of our bonehead comments ;o]

Mar 17, 21 3:13 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

Update: I had three sessions with the NYC therapist/executive coach and pulled the plug.

It's interesting to see the parallels between what I/we do and what they do. I expected her to ask me a lot of questions, and even told her before we started that I assumed it would take several sessions to finish telling her my story, and after that I assumed we would discuss an approach. As I would do with a client. Instead she did a lot of pontificating, a lot of asking me questions about where in my body I felt a specific emotion, if I could feel the chair and floor pushing against my feet, and a lot of loooong pauses that I guess were supposed to be for me to reflect but they just made me uncomfortable as I calculated how much I was paying to sit in silence.

Overall I got one good tip on breathing. When I told her I wanted to try out some other therapists and approaches she tried to get me to stay by saying my discomfort was normal. I expect discomfort, but also to have some sense that she knows what she's doing or understands me, instead of jumping into the deep end of "feeling my body" when what I want is to work through some specific issues.

The experience did give me new empathy for my clients, who I don't always treat as well as I should, and reaffirms my decision to scale back significantly and provide excellent service to just a few clients at a time.

This week I researched therapists available that would take my insurance; not that I'll ever reach my $13K deductible through therapy but at least if there is a major incident it will count. I called three; one returned the call and she happened to be the most promising, an actual psychologist and also a trained executive coach.

I know more than I did a month ago and will talk with her next week. Overall things are feeling much better anyway. Thank you all for your support. 

Apr 14, 21 12:36 pm  · 
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proto

I have a family member that needed some counseling & it took a couple of "dates" with therapists to find the right one. My family member now has a very productive relationship with the right therapist now. It is remarkable how pragmatic some of the therapist's ideas are for my family member (when he shares). Someone is out there that can help...

Apr 14, 21 12:50 pm  · 
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Wilma Buttfit

Sorry Wood guy, that sounds awful. I have been in therapy many times and it was never like that. My best experience with a therapist was with a social worker because most all of my mental health issues were/are socially and familially derived.

Apr 14, 21 5:07 pm  · 
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citizen

Though this one wasn't a keeper, WG, it sounds like your approach was just right: (i) try out this person who may be able to help me; (ii) give them enough chance to do that; and (iii) cut 'em loose when they fail. Don't forget (iv) try again, using referrals and other intel to find a good fit. And of course (v), tell your friends here how it's going.

Apr 14, 21 5:29 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

Thanks tintt and citizen. I know I'm treating this like a personal journal; hopefully anyone annoyed by that can skip over my posts.

I mostly found it comical--I kept wondering when she was going to ask about, well, anything I consider significant. She probably had a good point--that if I want to get in touch with my feelings, a cognitive approach may not work. But I'm not sure where she got the idea that getting in touch with my feelings was my biggest issue. 

Apr 14, 21 5:38 pm  · 
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mightyaa

Yes, finding a good therapist is hard. And they are expensive. Sort of the 'feel' stuff your therapists did, I think maybe she was going down the line of one of my old ones. By focusing on the touch, like starting with your toes and slowly working your way up your body, it 'quiets' my head. Breathing and muscle control are a part too. That leads to other meditation exercises to get mental breaks and some refresh. I can't turn my thinker off, but can get some quiet time if I refocus my thoughts. If you keep at it, those quiet times become easier.

Apr 14, 21 7:24 pm  · 
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randomised

why would they start at the body part furthest away from where mental health issues reside? (partly joking)

Apr 14, 21 7:42 pm  · 
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bowling_ball

The "identify where you're feeling anxious" thing has been typical of the 3 therapists I've seen. It's a tool. I feel like I can identify with WG recently as I've been to about 4 sessions now with a new therapist and I'm not sure I'm really getting much out of it. He asks very few questions but as I'm not currently in a crisis (like I have been with other therapists in the past), maybe that's normal. I have cut down on drinking though and I'm sleeping a little better, so I'll stick it out a little longer and see where this goes I guess.

Apr 14, 21 8:56 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

Proto, I didn't mean to leave you out in my response above. It definitely feels like dating, though I can barely remember what that was like ;-)

Her reason for starting with identifying where feelings are in my body, feeling the floor against my feet and chair against my butt etc. is, according to her, that we don't just feel feelings in our body, the feelings actually originate in our body. She has studied it a lot more than I have so it's not that I don't believe her, it's just a big jump for me to make.

BB, good to know I'm in good company. Kudos on cutting back on drinking--same here, or at least trying to.

Apr 15, 21 9:14 am  · 
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Wood - It sounds like your previous therapist was having you do exercise to get you to be in the moment. AKA - stop thinking about everything else going on that you need to do and for a few minutes just experience life right then. It can be a good calming technique.

Apr 15, 21 9:27 am  · 
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Wood Guy

Chad, that's very likely part of it. She could have articulated that. When I "broke up with" her, she focused on my desire to be more in touch with my feelings, vs my generally cognitive approach. In our introductory conversation I explained my interest and research in Myers-Briggs personality types, what my type is, that I have been diagnosed with ADD and that many people have suggested that I might be on the autism spectrum. I don't use those as crutches, quite the opposite. She hinted a few times that she doesn't believe in those things, or that she doesn't think they apply to me. I dunno.

She was also late to each of our appointments, including almost 30 minutes late to the last one, and knew that I had a standing meeting directly after ours that I couldn't miss. I just did not feel any sort of spark with her after our initial phone call. Probably just as much on me as her. I'm looking forward to talking with someone else next week.

Apr 15, 21 10:13 am  · 
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It dose sound like your previous therapist didn't explain things well. I hope you find someone new to help out.

Apr 15, 21 10:27 am  · 
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Wood Guy

XLJA, do you mean for my mom? She's still pretty self-sufficient, I just need to provide emotional support and remind her (daily) that it's important to take all of her meds, even if she feels good that day, take her to doctors' appointments, make her walk around the block when she's up for it. In the future I agree that home health care would be good, but for now it just takes time and emotional energy from me.

Apr 15, 21 11:41 am  · 
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Wood Guy

I'll talk to her about it. Fortunately she was a state employee and has excellent insurance, which might cover an aide. I'm glad your brother is doing well in the group home. My SIL used to work at one, got her RN license and now serves that population in a hospital setting. She also has mental health issues so she understands what her patients are dealing with.

Apr 15, 21 12:12 pm  · 
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Wilma Buttfit

Wood guy, if you are intellectual, then that is the approach you seek. I understand her approach to get you into your body and it's effectiveness, but she failed to engage you where you are at, a fatal error on her part. She wanted you to be where she is at instead of her being where you are at. And being late to appointments is unacceptable. I'm glad you are moving past her.

Apr 15, 21 8:22 pm  · 
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atelier nobody

Sorry to hear things are rough, but good on you for dealing with it.

Remind me where you are - I have a therapist friend in Vermont.

Mar 17, 21 11:40 am  · 
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Wood Guy

Thanks AN, I shared partly to vent and partly because I think it's important to destigmatize mental health problems (which are just health problems). I'm in central/coastal Maine but with the magic of Zoom it doesn't matter where the therapist is.

Mar 17, 21 11:54 am  · 
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Here's a story about my mentality. I've been like this all my life:

Yesterday I was SLAMMED at work and had to rush from one thing to the next all day. I was rushing into an enclave for a Zoom meeting but I had to do it on my phone and needed my earbuds which I keep in a little case in my purse. I was late, of course, so I just dumped my purse on the floor by my desk, grabbed the earbuds, and ran. After several other meetings I came back to my desk, cleaned up all the dumped stuff, and went home.

I came into work this morning (at 6AM to rpepare for another mtg LOL) to find a pile of half a dozen bobby pins on my desk. Last night was the night the office cleaners come in (Wednesday and Friday). And  am 100% sure what happened is the lady who runs the vaccum got to my desk area and heard that awful metallic crunching sound of bobby pins going into a vaccuum - they're black on charcoal carpet, so almost invisible. She had to stop the vaccum, comb the area for the pins, and then placed them all neatly on my desk.

So I've been just plagued with guilt over this all day! I hate that I gave her extra work (she porbably barely gets paid as it is), I hate that I might have broken her vacuum cleaner (how she makes a living), I hate that I was so sloppy and ignorant to leave my desk a mess.  Something like this happens and I spiral into guilt and embarassment that my actions impacted someone else. Hell of a mental condition for an architect to have, eh?


Apr 15, 21 12:35 pm  · 
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That's not a mental condition, it is simply a compassionate response, something that not enough of us have. Celebrate that you are one of the few.

Apr 15, 21 12:40 pm  · 
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archanonymous

Wow, Donna, are you me? I sometimes get overwhelming waves of guilt from things that happened 5,10 years ago like this.

Apr 15, 21 12:47 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

I know the guilt spiral well, but while thoughtfulness and consideration for what others are going through may seem like a mental condition these days, it's the opposite. It was probably not a big deal to her, and likely made her feel good to feel extra helpful. You could leave her a token of appreciation and everyone wins.

Apr 15, 21 12:51 pm  · 
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Wilma Buttfit

I suffer from this condition as well. INTENSE AND UNWAVERIG COMPASSION FOR EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING but myself. 

Apr 15, 21 4:51 pm  · 
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Wilma Buttfit

Mental conditions are not mental ILLNESSES.

Apr 15, 21 5:45 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

XJLA, you might have seen the meme going around last year about what kind of person doesn't put away their shopping cart? I feel strongly about returning carts, but of course everyone gets the occasional pass. I shared the meme on Facebook and it generated quite a debate. I ended up losing a friend-couple over it. (Their loss, not mine.)

Yesterday someone I highly respect surprised me with information that I would harshly judge anyone else for--way worse than shopping cart corrals. It made me think about how different all of our experiences and perspectives are, and even some things that I consider very important are viewed differently by others, and that that's ok. The last four years have scrambled my brain. There are many things that are objectively right or wrong, but also a whole lot of gray.

Apr 15, 21 6:34 pm  · 
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citizen

Thanks for posting, Donna (and everyone). Why are we so quick to cringe and internally self-destruct over simple and honest mistakes? I do this all the time, often over next to nothing. (OMG I can't believe I called Donna "Susan" by mistake. What a moron I am.) Tintt names it above. It's actually on the evil side of things to show oneself so little regard and compassion.

I'm not close to that demanding of anyone else.

Apr 15, 21 9:02 pm  · 
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Wilma Buttfit

citizen, modern liberalism and consitutionalism that we enjoy as a right says you are not a slave. God, too, in any expression, does not want you to offer endless peace to others, but for you to love and care for yourself. That's the gift.

Apr 15, 21 9:37 pm  · 
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It’s all about balance, right? If I take too much care of myself I’ve become a jerk to other people. If I take too much care of everyone else I become Doug from the The Good Place.

Apr 16, 21 8:03 am  · 
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The entire structure of competitive society is based on self-interest, where individuals climb over each other in desperate attempts get more. Cooperative societes are based on enlightened self-interest, where people work together to improve everyone's condition. To the detriment of all, the self-interested are running everything.

Apr 16, 21 10:12 am  · 
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Abie

It has been hard for everyone especially how the isolation would harm your mental condition. People are never born to be alone and needs some kind of support be able to live a healthy life. 


Apr 15, 21 1:16 pm  · 
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∑ π ∓ √ ∞

We're born alone, we'll die alone; our aloneness is the only thing we own.

Apr 16, 21 9:55 am  · 
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shellarchitect

Our 9 year old has now been in school full time for almost a month, the difference is like light night and day for her and us.

Just had a conf with her teachers and she's gone from really struggling to near the top of her class in all subjects.  She struggles with ADD and zoom or partial in person classes just don't work for her. 

I just hope people can stay safe and the kids can finish out the year.  Michigan is a disaster right now, hospitals are nearly full.  At least the people there are younger, healthier, and will prob survive.  


Apr 15, 21 1:37 pm  · 
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Congrats on the kiddo doing so much better, shell!

Apr 15, 21 8:12 pm  · 
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James Bragg

Our mental health, or even simply our own mental state is paramount, and I don't use that word lightly.

Everything we do (or don't do) is based on our mental state: when I feel down my productivity sinks, everything looks gloomy and negative. When I feel great my productivity picks up and the world is full of possibilities.

The simple trick I learned a few years ago is that our mental state is just 'thoughts', and thoughts can be changed.

This may sound trivial but sometimes changing mental state takes as little as putting a pair of headphones on and listening to my favourite uplifting music. At least for me this works.

Apr 19, 21 1:35 pm  · 
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It's important to realize that our mental state may just be 'thoughts' it's more complicated than that. What works for one person to maintain their mental health won't work for another.

Telling someone with clinical depression to change their thinking is like telling a type 1 diabetic to simply tell their body to make insulin.  

Apr 19, 21 2:52 pm  · 
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James Bragg

Clearly if someone has a condition such as clinical depression the above does not apply.

Evidently I didn't do a good job expressing that mental health and mental state are separate.

Apr 20, 21 5:15 am  · 
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Wood Guy

I'm not sure but I feel like that may be the exact definition of clinical depression--when you simply can't will yourself into happiness, or whatever the right word is for not-depressed. But for those with good mental health, I agree that we do have the ability to change our mindset, and our mood. That's what I've always done, but it's getting harder to do on my own.

Apr 20, 21 8:52 am  · 
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James - your mental health and mental state are so connected that they are the same thing. It seems to me that what your describing is a persons attitude.

Apr 20, 21 10:30 am  · 
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Wilma Buttfit

Yeah, the definition of depression is when you can't do that.

Apr 20, 21 11:02 am  · 
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James Bragg

@Chad, the way I see it: it is true that mental health is connected to mental state, however you may not have any 'serious' mental health issues (e.g. clinical depression) and yet your mental state today may have a pessimistic outlook because of whatever (you didn't get laid, you lost a bet, etc.), in which case you may elect to change your mental state through certain tecniques. That is, if you have the attitude to do that.

Having said that, if your mental health is compromised because of a known condition (clinical depression, schizophrenia, bipolar disorder, etc.) there is no way you can will those issues away, as Wood Guy and tintt said.

Apr 22, 21 4:57 pm  · 
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James Bragg

Slightly off-topic but, incidentally, does anybody know how to insert a new paragraph into a comment without having to save the comment and then re-edit?

Apr 22, 21 4:59 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

James, no, that's the only way I'm aware of.

Apr 22, 21 6:29 pm  · 
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Apr 22, 21 10:40 pm  · 
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∑ π ∓ √ ∞

Right now, my mental health, seems to hinge on my immediate community, and the pain I'm seeing them go through. It's devastating to watch, listen, and take it all in. I'm, at a loss. Seems to have impacted my physical health too; dizzy when I lay my head down at night, frequent cottonmouth in the middle of the night, when I do wake - either to hit the bathroom, or from my 7-9 hours of sleep - I am suffering from dizzy spells that have me steadying myself. 

What is this shit, been going on for at least 5 months? 

Apr 19, 21 5:09 pm  · 
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The dizziness is worrying, b3ta. You should probably see a doctor if it’s been going on this long. As for the pain your community is going through, of course your anxiety levels would be very, very high right now. But the dizziness is worrying.

Apr 20, 21 7:52 am  · 
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Wood Guy

I agree with Donna--the strife right now may well be taking a toll on you, but I'm not sure that dizzy spells and dry mouth are typical stress responses.

Apr 20, 21 8:49 am  · 
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∑ π ∓ √ ∞

Well, reading this is a bit disconcerting. Helps put my horrible late summer into more perspective, and cements my need to get the mri and ultrasound next week.

Dec 23, 21 5:45 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

Eight months later and you haven't gotten checked out yet?! Yeah get that MRI!!!

Dec 24, 21 2:17 pm  · 
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∑ π ∓ √ ∞

I'm a guy, I don't want to bother people.

Dec 24, 21 5:31 pm  · 
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A moment of GOOD mental health because they DO exist:

I just went out and visited an almost-complete house project by a Famous Architect that is being built near me and for whom I recommended the contractor. The contractor invited me because he wanted me to see it because I had recommended him for it, and also he remembered that I had recommended him for a very small project years ago when he was just starting out and he is really grateful. 

I've not accomplished a lot in my life and in one way or another I fuck up every day but I do think I've done small good acts all over the damn place and that feels good!

Apr 22, 21 3:29 pm  · 
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citizen

Excellent, Donna. And those small good acts, done all over creation and spanning several decades, is a pretty nice definition of "accomplished" in my book.

Apr 22, 21 10:22 pm  · 
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citizen

A Brit comedian asked about his experience in counseling: "I went for Dickens therapy.  You compare everything in your life to a Victorian orphan's.  Turns out, everything's just dandy."

Apr 28, 21 5:04 pm  · 
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This made me giggle.


May 6, 21 7:09 am  · 
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midlander

i burn my candle just like i design, from the inside out

May 6, 21 8:22 am  · 
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Wood Guy

Middle-out combustion! (Silicon Valley show reference)

May 6, 21 8:55 am  · 
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Non Sequitur

hold my beer

May 6, 21 9:01 am  · 
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The correct way is to break the candle in half and burn both ends of both pieces. Com'on now, didn't they teach you anything in architecture school?

May 6, 21 10:44 am  · 
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randomised

don't people know you shouldn't burn candles at all? they're toxic and release benzene and toluene, when burning which are carcinogens...

May 6, 21 10:59 am  · 
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Wood Guy

Burning light bulbs doesn't work as well, though.

May 6, 21 12:30 pm  · 
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James Bragg

<deleted>, posted in wrong section.

Jun 4, 21 3:06 pm  · 
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Not a good sign ...

Jun 4, 21 3:12 pm  · 
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James Bragg

I know, right? Must be all that news media making me depressed.

Jun 4, 21 3:19 pm  · 
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∑ π ∓ √ ∞

Has anyone watched the Bo Burnham special on Netflix? It's called Inside, and it's filmed in his "shed" about dealing with the pandemic.

Jun 7, 21 7:07 am  · 
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Non Sequitur

I did yesterday.  Very well done and good POV.  I'm still troubled by how small the door to the shed is.


Jun 7, 21 9:15 am  · 
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That 'shed' has a kitchen and bathroom . . .

Jun 7, 21 10:54 am  · 
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SneakyPete

Did Bo interview Arthur Two Sheds Jackson?

Dec 24, 21 2:26 pm  · 
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18 months later things are worse. I’m deeply struggling. If it weren’t for my son I’d just give up at this point, move to Alaska or something. Somewhere COLD because between perimenopause and global warming I’m hot ALL THE TIME. And my AC just broke and…why do we even live in a world that depends on heating the planet more so we have to cool ourselves more which heats the planet more? Humans are so stupid.

Jun 22, 22 7:03 am  · 
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,,,,

Hang in there Donna.

Jun 22, 22 8:08 am  · 
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citizen

How is Angus doing, Donna?

Jun 22, 22 2:48 pm  · 
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Rough Times

Angus is wonderful, Except for having to deal with a terrifyingly perimenopausal and manic mother. I’m taking him to see Ike Reilly tonight, his first time! Ike is finally doing an all-ages show.

Jun 22, 22 3:57 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling, Donna. It is certainly ironic that our desire for comfort and convenience is driving the planet toward being uninhabitable. Those of us who try to do better are constantly mocked for our efforts, but what are the alternatives? Go all-in on selfishism and the me-first attitude? I might have mentioned elsewhere that I think a growth market is homes and compounds that will remain habitable while the world continues to devolve. For those wealthy enough to afford it, of course.

Jun 23, 22 8:53 am  · 
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Rough Times

So my basic thesis is this: In a country as wealthy and powerful as the US, citizens should not have to struggle constantly just to barely survive.

In this country, every day, every moment, shouldn't be a struggle.

I'm not really talking about myself, I'm fairly sustainably mid-middle-class now that I downsized (sold all my assets) from trying-to-be-upper-middle-class until in my early 50s that wasn't possible.  But we do still spend most of what we make trying to have a roof and food, have health insurance, and put a child through college. My neighbors (in my down-sized neighborhood of barely blue collar workers) truly struggle every moment. I see them balance which bills to pay every month, driving beat-to-hell cars (because we don't have mass transit), worrying about the landlord tripling their rent, juggling child care on short notice because their bosses won't give them standard shifts.  They don't have health insurance, they likely don't own their home, when they ARE able to access any kind of social service it's only after harrowing, lengthy fights to even get something basic, like just applying for social security, which is every US citizen's right! 

We are surrounded by precarity, by people barely surviving. I have so many unhoused people in my neighborhood that I know them by name and recognize their shopping carts. If I walk into the CBD I see so many more, people who don't even have a cart to call their own, getting nearly run over by assholes in jumped-up mega trucks who obviously feel traffic laws don't apply to them.

And that's a HUGE part of my mental stress: the US society is SO selfish. We celebrate it! Trump says that "not paying taxes is *smart*" and people cheer like mad! What the hell kind of society can we have when people proudly cheat others, when cheating someone else is a valid business model (looking at you, every cable company, insurance firm, and pyramid scheme operator). 

I haven't even touched on school shootings and gun glorification/ammosexual culture, or climate change, or loss of reproductive freedom, or the complete perversion by leaders of Christianity from loving and serving the needy to forcing others - literally with guns - to submit to whatever perverted reading of "biblical law" they want to push today (but that doesn't apply to themselves, of course).

My question is basically: how can ANYONE have good mental health in this world? Although it seems like sociopaths'' mental health is doing just fine.


Jun 22, 22 1:11 pm  · 
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proto

i believe you will find "me first" in the constitution...just ask a libertarian/"independent" for the citation

Jun 22, 22 1:20 pm  · 
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sameolddoctor

Yup, you are right. This country (the US) is one that has turned into a nation run by oligarchs, for the super wealthy. In Russia they have actual oligarchs, here we have Bezos and Musk. And it seems that the government (Dems, Republicans, Supreme Court, State Governments etc) are just out to protect their own. 

Speaking of gun violence, it angers me so much to see the spineless, unorganized Dems have spent so much time and energy on the Jan 6th insurrection, and on protecting supreme court judges, while just a month ago 19 babies were murdered. While the evil Republicans just run amok all over the place. It is all a big farce, in the name of democracy, and everyone up there is complicit.

Bury yourself in CAD/Rhino/Revit etc and carry on.

Jun 22, 22 1:25 pm  · 
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Rough Times

I'm sorry, I just remembered that Mental Health Central is supposed to be a politics-free thread. But "carrying on" isn't mentally healthy, either. If ALL I'm doing is carrying on, if there's no joy in life (which I do have a tiny bit of), why bother "carrying on"? This is why assisted suicide laws exist, right?

Jun 22, 22 1:55 pm  · 
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SneakyPete

Those laws are generally of the "you don't get to do it" sort.

Jun 22, 22 2:16 pm  · 
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sameolddoctor

Right, I've given up on politics in this country, its all too rotten. Hence for mental health, just carry on.

Jun 22, 22 6:07 pm  · 
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,,,,

^^Whatever. ^^

Jun 22, 22 9:05 pm  · 
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,,,,

A sociopaths' mental state is filled with self loathing, grievance, and victim hood. A lot of this country's problems are because there is minority rule. 15 states have a total population less than California and they have 30 senators. California has 2. If we were to get rid of the filibuster we could have progressive legislation that would solve a lot of the financial, racial, social. and by extension mental problems of this country. The 2 are inextricably linked.

Jun 22, 22 9:20 pm  · 
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sameolddoctor

We can talk about the filibuster all day long, indeed I did all these years. But here's a question - Whats stopping the Dems from, say starting a referendum on the Second Amendment and put in resources like they are doing on the Jan 6th committee? Or, whats stopping Biden from creating an executive order to ban assault weapons? The answer is that the Dems are merely protecting themselves and their positions, so they do not seal their defeat in November (which is imminent). I am ashamed to say I vote for Democrats.

Jun 22, 22 9:43 pm  · 
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,,,,

If you don't mind copy paste over to politics central and I will respond.

Jun 22, 22 9:47 pm  · 
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sameolddoctor

Im good z1111, I have had plenty of responses from family and friends, but have completely given up. Good luck!

Jun 23, 22 12:59 am  · 
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Wood Guy

While politics encompasses every aspect of daily life and I agree that it is directly related to mental health, I think it would be best if we kept overtly political references to the Politics forum.

Jun 23, 22 8:45 am  · 
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Rough Times

This tweet just made me cry. It’s like I can’t remember what it feels like to accomplish something I’m proud of, but I love when other people do it!


Jun 22, 22 3:55 pm  · 
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Wood Guy

"It’s like I can’t remember what it feels like to accomplish something I’m proud of"--c'mon, there must be something? Or something you could choose to work toward?

Jun 23, 22 10:40 am  · 
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,,,,

Imo the root cause of a lot of the mental problems is economic, racial,  and social inequality. The only viable solution is legislation. 


To not believe in government is Social Darwinism.


The problem is there are sociopaths with minority views in positions of authority.


One of their goals is to create such a toxic environment that people paint all politicians with the same brush and give up.


If you think you are having trouble with mental problems now imagine what life would be like under fascist rule.



Jun 23, 22 7:35 am  · 
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sameolddoctor

I just dont believe in OUR government, to be clear.

Jun 23, 22 9:33 pm  · 
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