I've been neglecting my duties as a blogger on this website, and I'm not really quite sure why. I think it may be that I'm becoming uneasy with how to speak about my work and others. A subconscious deflection of responsibilities that I signed up for two years ago. The more time I invest in Architecture and theory, the more I become confused as to where my position is within the field. I haven't identified a solid Project that significantly interests me, one that I can explore in every project. Although, I can list things that always catch my interest, I just haven't been able to distill it into one categorizable thing that will encapsulate my school work and my interests outside of school.
Part of my withdrawal from this blog, and sometimes my work is that I did not realize how consuming the work would be. I don't know how many times I've been told "there is no life outside of architecture, if you want to succeed then you need to allow the discipline to consume you whole". I don't believe in this philosophy and I don't know how many other people agree with it either, but just happily shake their heads and say "yeah" when they hear it. I think that this is one of the main reasons why so many architects are married to social workers - to pull them back into society and make them understand who they're creating architecture for.
As of this year, I've made a pact with myself to not sit around and drone on about architecture and the properties it contains. But, it is difficult to make this effort when the people I'm spending most of my time around only talk about studio, their architecture jobs (past and present), and don't understand why I'm so resistant to the constant chatter of our work.
I am incredibly fortunate to be able to go to school, and to study architecture, I am just trying to reconcile the life I thought I would have and the life I currently have. I never thought I would question going home to attend a family reunion because of studio work that hasn't been assigned yet.
I can't say I'm questioning my choice, because I am not. I'll be happy to have the degree and begin looking for a place in a non-existent job market. But, I am questioning the amount of devotion I'm expected to have to a single idea and field. I know I will love the work, but will I love the work for 90 hours a week for years? I'm not so sure. I am not a machine, and neither are my peers. I get grumpy, sneezy, sleepy, dopey, bashful and doc just like every other person on the planet.
I guess what I'm trying to say is: What is Architecture and why does it require so much effort to figure it out, do it and the analyze it? I don't have an answer and that is why I'm sitting here referencing Snow White and Seven Dwarfs. And that is why I've been hesitant to post on the blog and talk about my work because I don't even fully know what it is yet or how it functions in the built world and discipline. I guess, all I can do is trying thinking differently and changing the way I currently go about things.
And, so, to end this, some photos of things I like: