and calling it quits. Yup, just like that. Just received my studio grade and it weighs in at a big fat C-
"Merry fucking Christmas too you!" says Mr. Studio Professor.
"Why thank you so much! That's exactly what I wanted for Christmas! Spread the joy around!"
This is not a passing grade within the college, and a 3.0 GPA must be maintained at the University level. Granted this is my first year in grad school coming from a BSD in Arch. so I knew what I was getting myself into.
Now that my holidays are ruined (so is my life) I am realizing that I am tired of all the hard work, long nights, dedication, and money I am putting into this education... and at the end, it just doesn't really matter. It is not seen. My instructors don't see it. I guess they see me as some jerk off that is just trying to get by. Yes, I struggle with ideas and architecture, but who doesn't? Honestly. Are we all gifted FLWs in college? I am still trying to find my identity still and that is why I am in grad school. To further develop myself as a designer and as an architect. To be ridiculed and just punished for it in this way is unbelievable. We all have our own battles to face, and to base judgment on the final presentation is ludicrous. Ever instructor knows the hurdles we jump over to get to where we are at final review. To fail me because I did not overcome this instructors 'wet dreams' I dunno, maybe architecture school is not for me. Maybe I should pursue something that hard work, dedication, and good work ethics do shine through in effort.
A little more about me, I do not hold a job, nor a GF, or have kids on the side. Education is my primary focus. The very education that has destroyed my life, and my love for architecture. That one thing I found passion in, stripped away. That one dream I had of becoming an architect and serving the community and leaving an impact of life, vanished. To pass on and know your buildings still grace earth and part of society, gone. Am I a dreamer? Do I lack confidence? Am I timid? Maybe a little of all those things, but then why am I in school for? To get a piece of paper? I wouldn't be here if I was not interested in Architecture and improve upon myself. I am putting in a valid effort! Do I have to get on my knees? Why am I getting punished for this!
It's time to move on in my life. I am sick of all the thick glasses, black turtle neck wearing, moleskin carrying bull shit artists that walk behind these walls. They are all morons! They are absolutely NO ONE once they leave the walls of the architecture building. They are so out of touch of the real world that nobody cares about them. They need to feel special so they lurk around the School of Architecture building to put down kids and don't even bother to give any type guidance or motivation. Why am I am in the school in the first place? I can develop buildings and ideas at my own pace. I dont need stress and naggers to put me down. Architecture for them is solely what they believe it should be. What happened to serving the client's needs instead of their sick fantasies?
In conclusion, architecture has ruined my life. I am an introvert in society, a hermit. I barricade myself in my room when school is done because I do not know how to relate to society anymore. I am still single and would like to have a family some day. Ha! But how? How is that going to happen? Architecture has taken this away from me... and for what? A 35k salary with no job security? Why am I putting my self through this? I do not care. I am tired of spending so much money, hard work, dedication, for mediocre teachers and their ideologies of what architecture is. It's all bullshit. That's right! Architecture is bullshit! You heard me.
:insert sobbing right here as I can no longer type:
Merry X-mas to all!
l0sts0ul
May 14, 09 9:33 pm
I threw in the towel winter break. Depressed. Lost. Confused. Emotional. I clawed my way out and picked up the shattered pieces off the floor. I clenched that towel off the floor and came back for more! I fought my way till I was granted into the second studio. I came back with my head down, and spear headed the semester, having one of the best projects in my class. Hated amongst my classmates for my practicality, they would tell you otherwise. What I was told on my exit interview by my instructor has lifted me onto a whole new level. Someone you actually sees my thoughts, my skills, my passion... and to actually compliment me over the schools 'elite'.
"Maybe it was a matter of luck?"
"Maybe it was other things?"
I say these sayings from time to time, but as I sit and ponder, it was my dedication. I feel spirited to finish another year. When I thought I was beaten down to the ground, when I thought I was questioned as being an horrible architect, I came back with vengeance.
BRING IT ON!
lcanet
Dec 11, 09 12:48 pm
I am in architecture grad - and i have not gotten my grade yet but I would not be surprised if i got a C.
One thing to keep in mind, architecture is not for everyone, it by NO MEANS means you're not passionate, involved, or wouldn't be very good at something else, or even something similar. "not being able to rought it out" does not make you a useless person.
it is a very underpaid profession, and not necessarily for everyone. Also since you did arch in undergrad you might not have a good idea of what else is out there. I did not do arch in undergrad, and even if I get a C, I am sticking with it. Why? Because I've already tried out other fields, and was not able to tough out my previous profession. Why? Not because I was dumb or unmotivated, but because it was not a good fit. Not being a good fit seems cliche, but it really is true.
Analyze yourself. What are your strengths? Maybe you have good social skills. Maybe you are good at math. Maybe you are creative. Maybe you are not creative but you are very organized. There is a career out there for someone with your qualities. Find it! Seriously, there is no shame in switching careers, and it does not mean you're a loser who couldn't tough it out. If you've been doing this for undergrad AND grad, and you're tired, maybe it wasn't the right profession for you in undergrad either. Take it for me, I chose the wrong major in undergrad too.
Good luck.
passerby1ce
Dec 11, 09 1:52 pm
what'd you do bettyloo?
enjoying arch. now? why?
Paradox
Dec 11, 09 4:03 pm
After getting a very SERIOUS traffic ticket and talking to lots of people including attorneys I started seeing the law field very attractive! Especially the traffic law part!
weezypal
Dec 11, 09 5:49 pm
I live in paradise with no financial worries, a great partner, loads of time to do anything I want and not a care in the world.
I still want to give everything up and go back to school.
All architects are masochists at heart.
weezypal
Dec 11, 09 5:50 pm
It also helps to think that wearing all black and carrying around a moleskin is really really cool.
traceā¢
Dec 11, 09 7:35 pm
MBA
2step
Dec 11, 09 10:35 pm
You can do SO MUCH better than an architecture degree, whatever that means. As a Licensed Architect I can honestly tell you that your "education" has no bearing on how you will perform. Your best bet would be to work as a carpenter's apprentice or similar trade but I doubt that is acceptable toady. Your loss, lobby the NCARB to change the rules. Im glad I was licensed in the 1970s and not today. I actually know what Im doing and was educated for a whole lot less.
snook_dude
Dec 11, 09 11:08 pm
Jack....> are you Leed?
Jack>>>are you Lead?
Jack /// are your NCARB?
jack??? are you AIA?
Jack can you design your way out of a paper bag? If you can grab the cat by the tail.....and go for it, cause I know you know how to write a contract. We be the next big winners!
Paradox
Dec 12, 09 2:03 am
"I actually know what Im doing and was educated for a whole lot less."
*sigh*
I should have born around the 60ies..More value in apprenticeship,less schooling,much less loans, and hippies...
hankd
Dec 12, 09 8:29 pm
k4dm0Nk3y, you're just another angsty teenager
Milwaukee08
Dec 13, 09 1:35 pm
In studios, anything less than a B is failure, even in undergrad. I did get an F in a studio once, I didn't even bother finishing the second project because I was so burned out, so that was my fault. Retook it a semester later and got a B.
The problem is that studios are worth so many credits (in my school lectures are 3 credits, studios are 6), so that anything below a B just tanks your GPA, making it that much more difficult to advance to the next level.
NWA
Dec 14, 09 3:40 am
"He told me lack of sex is bringing meeee down"
jessycatherine
Aug 16, 23 2:56 am
Thank you!!! I could graduate from a Accounting program in a year, or this Architecture one in 2. It's really between passion and realism. It feels like one of those things where everyone mentions how the grass is always greener on the other side, but I think I value my mental, physical, and marital health more than what I do, so I really got to consider!
Renala P.
Sep 29, 23 10:27 pm
I wonder after all those years what career l0sts0ul is leading. I wish he/she is enjoying what he/she deserves and what much more rewarding to do!
and calling it quits. Yup, just like that. Just received my studio grade and it weighs in at a big fat C-
"Merry fucking Christmas too you!" says Mr. Studio Professor.
"Why thank you so much! That's exactly what I wanted for Christmas! Spread the joy around!"
This is not a passing grade within the college, and a 3.0 GPA must be maintained at the University level. Granted this is my first year in grad school coming from a BSD in Arch. so I knew what I was getting myself into.
Now that my holidays are ruined (so is my life) I am realizing that I am tired of all the hard work, long nights, dedication, and money I am putting into this education... and at the end, it just doesn't really matter. It is not seen. My instructors don't see it. I guess they see me as some jerk off that is just trying to get by. Yes, I struggle with ideas and architecture, but who doesn't? Honestly. Are we all gifted FLWs in college? I am still trying to find my identity still and that is why I am in grad school. To further develop myself as a designer and as an architect. To be ridiculed and just punished for it in this way is unbelievable. We all have our own battles to face, and to base judgment on the final presentation is ludicrous. Ever instructor knows the hurdles we jump over to get to where we are at final review. To fail me because I did not overcome this instructors 'wet dreams' I dunno, maybe architecture school is not for me. Maybe I should pursue something that hard work, dedication, and good work ethics do shine through in effort.
A little more about me, I do not hold a job, nor a GF, or have kids on the side. Education is my primary focus. The very education that has destroyed my life, and my love for architecture. That one thing I found passion in, stripped away. That one dream I had of becoming an architect and serving the community and leaving an impact of life, vanished. To pass on and know your buildings still grace earth and part of society, gone. Am I a dreamer? Do I lack confidence? Am I timid? Maybe a little of all those things, but then why am I in school for? To get a piece of paper? I wouldn't be here if I was not interested in Architecture and improve upon myself. I am putting in a valid effort! Do I have to get on my knees? Why am I getting punished for this!
It's time to move on in my life. I am sick of all the thick glasses, black turtle neck wearing, moleskin carrying bull shit artists that walk behind these walls. They are all morons! They are absolutely NO ONE once they leave the walls of the architecture building. They are so out of touch of the real world that nobody cares about them. They need to feel special so they lurk around the School of Architecture building to put down kids and don't even bother to give any type guidance or motivation. Why am I am in the school in the first place? I can develop buildings and ideas at my own pace. I dont need stress and naggers to put me down. Architecture for them is solely what they believe it should be. What happened to serving the client's needs instead of their sick fantasies?
In conclusion, architecture has ruined my life. I am an introvert in society, a hermit. I barricade myself in my room when school is done because I do not know how to relate to society anymore. I am still single and would like to have a family some day. Ha! But how? How is that going to happen? Architecture has taken this away from me... and for what? A 35k salary with no job security? Why am I putting my self through this? I do not care. I am tired of spending so much money, hard work, dedication, for mediocre teachers and their ideologies of what architecture is. It's all bullshit. That's right! Architecture is bullshit! You heard me.
:insert sobbing right here as I can no longer type:
Merry X-mas to all!
I threw in the towel winter break. Depressed. Lost. Confused. Emotional. I clawed my way out and picked up the shattered pieces off the floor. I clenched that towel off the floor and came back for more! I fought my way till I was granted into the second studio. I came back with my head down, and spear headed the semester, having one of the best projects in my class. Hated amongst my classmates for my practicality, they would tell you otherwise. What I was told on my exit interview by my instructor has lifted me onto a whole new level. Someone you actually sees my thoughts, my skills, my passion... and to actually compliment me over the schools 'elite'.
"Maybe it was a matter of luck?"
"Maybe it was other things?"
I say these sayings from time to time, but as I sit and ponder, it was my dedication. I feel spirited to finish another year. When I thought I was beaten down to the ground, when I thought I was questioned as being an horrible architect, I came back with vengeance.
BRING IT ON!
I am in architecture grad - and i have not gotten my grade yet but I would not be surprised if i got a C.
One thing to keep in mind, architecture is not for everyone, it by NO MEANS means you're not passionate, involved, or wouldn't be very good at something else, or even something similar. "not being able to rought it out" does not make you a useless person.
it is a very underpaid profession, and not necessarily for everyone. Also since you did arch in undergrad you might not have a good idea of what else is out there. I did not do arch in undergrad, and even if I get a C, I am sticking with it. Why? Because I've already tried out other fields, and was not able to tough out my previous profession. Why? Not because I was dumb or unmotivated, but because it was not a good fit. Not being a good fit seems cliche, but it really is true.
Analyze yourself. What are your strengths? Maybe you have good social skills. Maybe you are good at math. Maybe you are creative. Maybe you are not creative but you are very organized. There is a career out there for someone with your qualities. Find it! Seriously, there is no shame in switching careers, and it does not mean you're a loser who couldn't tough it out. If you've been doing this for undergrad AND grad, and you're tired, maybe it wasn't the right profession for you in undergrad either. Take it for me, I chose the wrong major in undergrad too.
Good luck.
what'd you do bettyloo?
enjoying arch. now? why?
After getting a very SERIOUS traffic ticket and talking to lots of people including attorneys I started seeing the law field very attractive! Especially the traffic law part!
I live in paradise with no financial worries, a great partner, loads of time to do anything I want and not a care in the world.
I still want to give everything up and go back to school.
All architects are masochists at heart.
It also helps to think that wearing all black and carrying around a moleskin is really really cool.
MBA
You can do SO MUCH better than an architecture degree, whatever that means. As a Licensed Architect I can honestly tell you that your "education" has no bearing on how you will perform. Your best bet would be to work as a carpenter's apprentice or similar trade but I doubt that is acceptable toady. Your loss, lobby the NCARB to change the rules. Im glad I was licensed in the 1970s and not today. I actually know what Im doing and was educated for a whole lot less.
Jack....> are you Leed?
Jack>>>are you Lead?
Jack /// are your NCARB?
jack??? are you AIA?
Jack can you design your way out of a paper bag? If you can grab the cat by the tail.....and go for it, cause I know you know how to write a contract. We be the next big winners!
"I actually know what Im doing and was educated for a whole lot less."
*sigh*
I should have born around the 60ies..More value in apprenticeship,less schooling,much less loans, and hippies...
k4dm0Nk3y, you're just another angsty teenager
In studios, anything less than a B is failure, even in undergrad. I did get an F in a studio once, I didn't even bother finishing the second project because I was so burned out, so that was my fault. Retook it a semester later and got a B.
The problem is that studios are worth so many credits (in my school lectures are 3 credits, studios are 6), so that anything below a B just tanks your GPA, making it that much more difficult to advance to the next level.
"He told me lack of sex is bringing meeee down"
Thank you!!! I could graduate from a Accounting program in a year, or this Architecture one in 2. It's really between passion and realism. It feels like one of those things where everyone mentions how the grass is always greener on the other side, but I think I value my mental, physical, and marital health more than what I do, so I really got to consider!
I wonder after all those years what career l0sts0ul is leading. I wish he/she is enjoying what he/she deserves and what much more rewarding to do!