So most of my life, I always strived to be a little more mature that I should be. I take on bigger responsibilities and became the 'mom' of my friend group. I rarely had time to be young and have fun. I was always focused on the future, and what it expected from me.

Well, I recently watched 'Archiculture' which is a 25-minute documentary of what it is like to be an Architecture student, with the perspective of 5 Pratt Institute Architecture majors and insight from architects and related professionals. While most of the documentary was what I imagined from my experience with studio culture, one insight took a strong hold on me.

A professional reminded me something I never realized about Studio. So far, I have thought of Studio in context of all the all-nighters, the failed designs that need to be reworked by the next day, the touchy-feely critics that just does not care how many hours were spent building a final model and almost always rip them apart... Well, surprisingly (or so to me), Studio will probably be the last time I get to design, for a really long time.

Obviously when you graduate and become a licensed architect, you start designing projects but it isn't the same. Designing in the real world has far greater consequences, and much planning. In the real world, you have to follow codes, have real clients that may straight-up hate your design, you have to stick to a deadline that involves so many people beyond you. You are not as independent. You will not be able to call your own shots. You will not be able to be free.

Design studio is open to a greater plug for creativity that isn't as restrictive as the real world. We create habitats for bees and worms. We design interesting food stands and follies. We make handshakes that become cubes and then homes. These projects will never be economically justified, or understood to the greater public, but it is fun. That's right, Studio is fun.

I just keep on thinking, how crazy of me to look down at my Studio's for not working with codes, building systems, and construction work! I have a lifetime for that. For now, I have no restraints. Design is design. There is no bureaucracy, limitations, and disastrous outcomes. You design and build your own project. You are there from beginning to end and chief to any position you like. This is the best thing ever. REPEAT: BEST. THING. EVER.

That cantilever can extend as far as it wants. That structural wall can be that thin. Yes, design your heart out! Get it out of your system, because you will never design like an undergraduate ever again.

I think now I know what it feels like to have fun. There is this great balance between working towards my future and liberating myself from my future.